Dhanzi Rakabatsira Mukadzi Uyu Kudzosera Muviri Wake Mushure mekufirwa neMwanakomana Wake

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Kosolu Ananti agara achida kufambisa muviri wake. Kukura mukupera kwema'80s, aerobics yaive jam yake. Sezvo maekisesaizi ake achishanduka, akatanga kuita mamwe masimba ekurovedza muviri uye cardio, asi aigara achiwana nzira yekudzvanya mumadhanzi mashoma pakati. Muna 2014, akazova mudzidzisi wega wega, akabva ava nepamuviri-uye zvese zvakachinja. (Verenga kuti ballet yakabatsira sei mumwe mukadzi kuti abatanezve nemuviri wake.)

"Kubva pakutanga, ndaiziva kuti chimwe chinhu chakanga chisina kumira zvakanaka," Kosolu, uyo anoenda kuKasa, akaudza. Chimiro. "Ini ndaibuda ropa rakawanda, asi pese pandaienda kuchipatara kana kushanyira ob-gyn yangu, vaindiudza kuti nhumbu yangu yaive ichiri kushanda."

Panguva yaakange ave nemwedzi mitanhatu achitevera, Kasa akange atora nguva yakawanda kubva kubasa yekugadzwa kwachiremba nekushanyirwa kuchipatara zvechimbichimbi. Akanga achishushikana kuti chero kusavapo kwaizomutorera basa. Saka rimwe zuva, paakanzwa kumonyoroka zvisina kujairika, akafunga kupusha nepakati, achifunga kuti zvese zvaive zvakanaka, sezvazvaive nguva dzese dzakapfuura.

Pashure pokunge arwadziwa kwekanguva uye kuona zvishoma, akafunga kuenda kuchipatara, uko vakamuudza kuti akanga ari mudumbu nguva isati yakwana. “Pandakapinda, ndakanga ndarerutswa ne2cm,” anodaro Kasa.

Akagara muchipatara kwemazuva maviri achitarisira kuti mwana agare arimo kwenguva yakareba sezvaaigona. Pazuva rechitatu, akabereka mwanakomana wake kuburikidza nechimbichimbi C-chikamu.

Mwanakomana wavo aive akakurumidza kukura, asi zvinhu zvaive zvakatarisana. "Aifamba zvakanyanya, maziso ake akavhurika-izvo zvakaita kuti tifunge kuti tine mukana," akadaro Kasa. Asi mushure memazuva manomwe Kasa nemurume wake vachishanyira mwanakomana wavo kuNICU, nhengo dzake dzakatanga kutadza kushanda achibva ashaya.

“Isu takanga tisina kutenda,” anodaro Kasa. "Kunyangwe isu taiziva kungwarira, taive netariro yakawanda, izvo zvakaita kuti kurasikirwa kwake kurambe kuchiita sekuvhunduka."

Kwemwedzi mitatu yakatevera, Kasa akarasika. "Ini ndanga ndisisanzwe seni zvakare," anodaro. "Ini ndaisada kuenda chero kupi kana kuita chero chinhu uye paive nenguva dzandaishuvira kuti ndisamuke. Asi ndaiziva kuti ndaifanirwa kutsvaga nzira yekurarama neimwe nzira." (Zvakafanana: Hezvinoi chaizvo Zvakaitika Pandakaitwa Miscarriage)

Kasa akazviwana ave nemisodzi isingadzoreke mushure mekuona mutengesi wemacheche mutengesi. "Ndainzwa kusiririsa uye ndikaziva kuti ndaifanira kusimuka ndoita chimwe chinhu, dai zvisiri zvangu ndozviita ndangariro dzemwanakomana wangu," anodaro. "Ndakanga ndakaderera, ndakanga ndawana mapaundi makumi maviri nemashanu uye hapana chandaiita kuti ndienderere mberi."

Saka, akafunga kuita zvaaishuvira kuita kwemakore mashoma apfuura: kutanga kambani yake yekudhanha kugwinya. "Ndinogara ndichida kugadzira chimwe chinhu chakabatanidza rudo rwangu rwekutamba uye kugwinya uye ndakafunga zano reafrikoPOP kumashure muna 2014," anodaro Kasa. "Sechizvarwa chekutanga African American, ini ndaida kugadzira chimwe chinhu chaisanganisira kutamba kweWest Africa nekudzidzira kwakasimba." (Onawo: 5 Makirasi Ekutamba Matsva Akapetwa Kaviri seCardio)

Mushure mekuwana zvese-zvakajeka kuti zviitwe kubva kuna chiremba wake, Kasa akatanga kugadzira kirasi. "Kubva muna Ndira, ndakagovera afrikoPOP nemazana evanhu uye mhinduro nerudo zvinoshamisa," anodaro. (Makirasi anowanikwa munzvimbo yeDallas-Fort Worth parizvino.)

Nekuzviisa kunze uko, kudzingirira hope dzake, uye kudzidza kunakidzwa nekushandira kunze zvakare, Kasa akadzidza kuda uye kugamuchira muviri wake zvichitevera kufirwa nemwanakomana wake. "Kufa kwevana vacheche kwakajairika kupfuura zvaungafunga, asi pane kunyara kwakatenderedza," anodaro Kasa. "Unozviona uchibvunza kuti chii chiri kunetsa pauri? Vamwe vese vanoita kunge vari kuita vana zvakanaka, wadii iwe?"

Asi kutanga afrikoPOP kwakaita kuti Kasa azive kuti izvo zvakaitika haisi mhosva yake. “Ndakanga ndisati ndamboudza chero munhu zvakaitika kumwanakomana wangu, uye kudzoreredza muviri wangu nekuvimba zvakare kwakaita kuti ndione kuti zvakanga zvakanaka kutaura nyaya yangu,” anodaro. "Vakadzi vazhinji vakauya nenyaya dzakafanana, zvichiita kuti ndinyanye kuona kuti handisi ndega."

Nhasi, Kasa ane pamuviri zvakare pasina matambudziko. “Ndinoda kuti madzimai azive kukosha kwekuteerera muviri wako, une pamuviri kana kuti usina,” anodaro Kasa. "Kana ari mwana wangu, murwi wangu, murwi wangu ngirozi yangu muchengeti uye ndinotenda Mwari nehupenyu hwake. Mweya wavo uri kundisunda parwendo urwu. Anondichengeta ndichitamba."

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