Vanachiremba Vakaregeredza Zviratidzo Zvangu Kwemakore Matatu Ndisati Ndazivikanwa neStage 4 Lymphoma

Zvemukati

• Anogara Achiongororwa Zvisirizvo
• The Breaking Point
• Pakupedzisira Kuwana Mhinduro
• Hupenyu Mushure mekenza
• Ongororo ye

Pakutanga kwa2014, ini ndaive musikana wako wepakati wekuAmerican ari kuma20 aine basa rakatsiga, ndichirarama hupenyu hwangu ndisina kunetseka munyika. Ndakanga ndakomborerwa noutano hukuru uye ndaiwanzo gadzira kushanda uye kudya zvakanaka pamberi. Kunze kwekungohwihwidza pano neapo, ndakanga ndisati ndamboenda kuhofisi yachiremba hupenyu hwangu hwese. Zvose izvi zvakachinja pandakatanga kukosora kwaingoramba kupera.

Anogara Achiongororwa Zvisirizvo

Ndakatanga kuona chiremba apo chikosoro changu chakatanga kuita. Ndakanga ndisati ndamboona chero chinhu chakadai, uye ndiri mukutengesa, kugara ndichigura dutu kwaive kushoma pane kufunga. Chiremba wangu wekutanga ndiye akatanga kundidzinga achiti kwaingova kurwara. Ndakapihwa mishonga yekusawirirana nekaunda ndikaendeswa kumba.

Mwedzi yakapfuura, uye kukosora kwangu kwakawedzera zvishoma nezvishoma. Ndakaona mumwe chiremba mumwe kana vaviri uye ndakaudzwa kuti hapana chakaipa pandiri, ndikapihwa imwe mishonga yekurwisa, ndokutendeuka. Yakazosvika panguva yekuti kukosora kwakava kwechipiri kwandiri. Vanachiremba vakati wandei vakanga vandiudza kuti hapana chandaishushikana nacho, saka ndakadzidza kufuratira chiratidzo changu ndokuenderera mberi nehupenyu hwangu.

Zvisinei, anopfuura makore maviri gare gare, ndakatangawo kuva nezvimwe zviratidzo. Ndakatanga kumuka manheru ega ega nekuda kwedikita rehusiku. Ndakarasikirwa nemapaundi makumi maviri, ndisina kuita shanduko kuhupenyu hwangu. Ini ndaive nemuitiro, wakanyanya kurwadziwa mudumbu.Zvakava pachena kwandiri kuti pane zvakanga zvisina kumira zvakanaka mumuviri wangu. (Yakabatana: Ini ndaive Nemafuta Kunyadziswa naChiremba Wangu uye Iye zvino Ndiri Kusada Kudzokera)

Pakutsvaga mhinduro, ndakaramba ndichidzokera kuna chiremba wangu wekutanga wekuchengeta, uyo akandinongedzera kuna vakasiyana siyana mazvikokota vaive nedzidziso dzavo pamusoro pechingave chakashata. Mumwe akati ndine ovarian cysts. A quick ultrasound kuvhara iyo. Vamwe vakati imhaka yekuti ndakashanda zvakanyanya-kuti kurovedza muviri kwaikanganisa metabolism yangu kana kuti ndakanga ndichangodhonza tsandanyama. Kuti ndive akajeka, ini ndaive mukati maPilates panguva iyoyo uye ndaienda kumakirasi 6-7 mazuva pasvondo. Kunyangwe ini ndaive ndichinyanya kushingaira kupfuura vamwe vanhu vakandikomberedza, hapana zvandaikwanisa kuita kusvika pakurwara panyama. Zvakadaro, ndakatora zvinozorodza tsandanyama, uye nemarwadzo andakanyorerwa nachiremba uye ndikaedza kuenderera mberi. Marwadzo angu paakaramba asina kuenda, ndakaenda kune mumwe doc, uyo akati yaive acid reflux ndokundiraira nemishonga yakasiyana yeiyo. Asi pasinei nokuti ndaizoteerera zano raani, marwadzo angu haana kumbomira. (Zvakafanana: Kukuvara Muhuro Kwangu Kwaive Kuzvitarisira Kumuka Kufona Ndakanga Ndisingazive Kuti Ndakuda)

Munguva yemakore matatu, ndakaona vanachiremba gumi nevarapi: general practitioners, ob-gyns, gastroenterologists, uye ENT's inosanganisirwa. Ini ndaingopihwa chete kuongororwa ropa uye imwe ultrasound nguva iyoyo yese. Ini ndakakumbira mimwe bvunzo, asi munhu wese akazvitora sezvisina basa. Ndakagara ndichiudzwa kuti ndaive mudiki uye ndakagwinya kuti ndive nechimwe chinhu chaizvo zvakaipa neni. Handimbofi ndakakanganwa pandakadzokera kuna chiremba wangu wekutanga wekurapa mushure mekupedza makore maviri ndichishandisa mishonga yekurwisa, ndichichema, ndichingori nekukosora kusingaperi, ndichikumbira rubatsiro iye akangonditarisa ndokuti: "Handizivi zvekukuudza. Wakagara zvakanaka. "

Pakupedzisira, hutano hwangu hwakatanga kukanganisa hupenyu hwangu. Shamwari dzangu dzaifunga kuti ndaiva hypochondriac kana kuti ndaishuva kuroorwa nachiremba sezvo ndaienda kunoongororwa zvakanyanya pavhiki. Kana neni ndakatanga kunzwa senge ndiri kupenga. Kana vanhu vakawanda vakadzidza zvikuru uye vane zvitupa vakakuudza kuti hapana chakaipa pauri, zviri muropa kutanga kusazvivimba. Ndakatanga kufunga kuti, 'Zviri mumusoro mangu here?' 'Ndiri kufutisa zviratidzo zvangu kubva muchiyero here?' Yakanga isiri kusvika pandakazviwana ndiri muEER, ndichirwira hupenyu hwangu ndipo pandakaona kuti izvo zvandaiudzwa nemuviri wangu zvaive zvechokwadi.

The Breaking Point

Zuva risati randirongerwa kubhururuka kuenda kuVegas kumusangano wekutengesa, ndakamuka ndichinzwa sendisingachakwanisi kufamba. Dikita rakanga raita kuyerera, mudumbu muchirwadza zvisingaite, uye ndakanga ndaneta zvokuti ndakanga ndisisagone kana kushanda. Zvekare, ndakaenda kunzvimbo yekurumidziro yekuchengetedza uko kwavakaita rimwe basa reropa uye vakatora weti sampuro. Panguva ino, vakafunga kuti ndaive nematombo eitsvo ayo angangopfuura ega. Ndakatadza kuita asi kunzwa sekuti munhu wese wepakiriniki iyi aida kuti ndipinde nekubuda, zvisinei nekuti ndainzwa sei. Pakupedzisira, ndapererwa, uye ndapererwa nemhinduro, ndakaendesa mhinduro dzangu kuna amai vangu, avo mukoti. Mukati maminetsi, akandifonera ndokundiudza kuti ndisvike kukamuri rokukurumidzira raiva pedyo zvikuru ASAP uye kuti akanga achikwira ndege achibva kuNew York. (Yakabatana: 7 Zviratidzo Zvausingafanire Kuregeredza

Akandiudza kuti chena yangu masero eropa yaive kuburikidza nedenga remba, zvichireva kuti muviri wangu waive uchirwiswa uye uchiita zvese musimba rekuzvirwisa. Hapana munhu pakiriniki akazvibata. Ndakagumbuka, ndakazvifambisa kuenda kuchipatara chepedyo, ndikarova zvibodzwa zvangu pabhenji rekugamuchira vanhu uye ndikangovakumbira kuti vandigadzirise - zvingave zvaireva kundipa marwadzo, mishonga yekurwisa mabhakitiriya, chero chii zvacho. Ini ndaingoda kunzwa zvirinani uye zvese zvandaigona kufunga nezvangu mudhiri rangu nderekuti ndaifanira kunge ndiri mundege mangwana acho. (Yakabatana: 5 Hutano Nyaya Dzinorova Vakadzi Zvakasiyana)

Apo ER doc pane vashandi vakatarisa miedzo yangu, akandiudza kuti ini handina kwandinoenda. Ndakabva ndangopinzwa ndikaendeswa kunotestwa. Kuburikidza neX-ray, CAT scans, kushanda kweropa, uye maastround, ndakaramba ndichipinda nekubuda. Ipapo, pakati pehusiku, ndakaudza manesi angu kuti ndaitadza kufema. Zvekare, ndakaudzwa kuti pamwe ndainetseka uye ndakamanikidzwa nekuda kwezvose zviri kuitika, uye kunetseka kwangu kwakabviswa. (Yakabatana: Vanachiremba vechikadzi Vari Nani Kupfuura ZveMurume Zvinyorwa, Nyowani Yekutsva Inoratidza)

Makumi mana nemashanu gare gare, ndakapinda mukutadza kufema. Hapana chimwe chandinoyeuka mushure meizvi, kunze kwekungomutsa amai vangu pedyo neni. Akandiudza kuti vaifanira kuburitsa kota litre yemvura kubva mumapapu angu uye vakaita mamwe ma biopsies kutumira kuongororwazve. Panguva iyoyo, ndakanyatsofunga kuti iro raive dombo rangu pasi. Zvino, munhu wese aifanira kunditora zvakanyanya. Asi ini ndakapedza anotevera mazuva gumi ndiri muICU ndichirwara zvakanyanya zuva nezuva. Chandakanga ndava kuwana panguva iyoyo waiva mushonga wemarwadzo uye rubatsiro rwekufema. Ndakaudzwa kuti ndaive neimwe hutachiona, uye kuti ndaizove ndakanaka. Kunyange apo vanachiremba veoncologist vakaunzwa kuti vaonekwe, vakandiudza kuti ndakanga ndisina kenza uye kuti yaifanira kuva chimwe chinhu. Nepo aisada kutaura, ndakanzwa kuti amai vangu vaiziva zvakanga zvisina kururama, asi vaitya kuzvitaura.

Pakupedzisira Kuwana Mhinduro

Ndave pedyo nekupedza kugara kwangu pachipatara ichi, serudzi rwaRumbidzai Mary, ndakatumirwa kunoongororwa PET scan. Mhedzisiro yacho yakaratidza kutya kukuru kwaamai vangu: Musi waFebruary 11th, 2016, ndakaudzwa kuti ndaive neStage 4 Hodgkin Lymphoma, gomarara rinokura mune lymphatic system. Yakanga yapararira kunhengo yese yemuviri wangu.

Kunzwa kurerukirwa uye kutya kwakanyanya kwakandibata pandakabatwa chirwere. Pakupedzisira, pashure pemakore ose aya, ndakaziva zvakanga zvisina kunaka pandiri. Ini zvino ndaiziva chokwadi kuti muviri wangu wanga uchisimudza mireza mitsvuku, uchindiyambira, kwemakore, kuti chimwe chinhu chaive chisina kunaka. Asi panguva imwe cheteyo, ndaiva nekenza, yakanga iri kwose kwose, uye ndakanga ndisingazivi kuti ndaizoikunda sei.

Nzvimbo yandakanga ndiri yakanga isina zviwanikwa zvaidiwa kundirapa, uye ndakanga ndisina kugadzikana zvakakwana kutamira kune chimwe chipatara. Panguva ino, ini ndaive nesarudzo mbiri: ndingaisa panjodzi pazvo uye ndinovimba ndakapona rwendo rwekuenda kuchipatara chiri nani kana kugara imomo ndofa. Nomuzvarirwo, ini ndakasarudza yekutanga. Panguva yandakagamuchirwa kuSylvester Comprehensive Cancer Center, ndakanga ndatyoka chose, zvese nepfungwa nemuviri. Chikurusa pazvose, ndaiziva kuti ndinogona kufa uye ndaifanira, zvakare, kuisa hupenyu hwangu mumaoko evamwe vanachiremba avo vakanditadza kanopfuura kamwe chete. Ndinofara, panguva ino, handina kuora mwoyo. (Yakabatana: Vakadzi Vanowanzoita Kuti Vararame Mwoyo Kurwisa Kana Chiremba Wavo Ari Mukadzi)

Kubva wechipiri ini ndakasangana neangu oncologists, ndaiziva kuti ndaive mumaoko akanaka. Ndakabvumirwa neChishanu manheru uye ndakaiswa chemotherapy usiku ihwohwo. Kune avo vangave vasingazive, iyo haisi iyo yakajairwa maitiro. Varwere vanowanzo fanirwa kumirira kwemazuva vasati vatanga kurapwa. Asi ini ndaive ndichirwara zvekuti kutanga kurapwa ASAP kwaikosha. Sezvo kenza yangu yakanga yapararira zvine hukasha, ndakamanikidzwa kuenda kune izvo zvakanzi navanachiremba salvage chemotherapy, inova mishonga inorapwa iyo inoshandiswa apo dzimwe sarudzo dzese dzakundikana kana mamiriro ezvinhu akatonyanya, seni. Muna Kurume, mushure mekupa matenderedzwa maviri eiyo chemo muICU, muviri wangu wakatanga kupinda mukuregererwa-pasi pemwedzi mushure mekuongororwa. Muna Kubvumbi, kenza yakadzoka, panguva ino muchipfuva changu. Kwemwedzi misere yakatevera, ndakaitwa chemo yakatenderera katanhatu uye makumi maviri ezvirongwa zvekurapwa nemwaranzi ndisati ndazonzi ndine gomarara-uye ndanga ndiripo kubvira ipapo.

Hupenyu Mushure mekenza

Vanhu vazhinji vaizonditora semhanza. Nyaya yekuti ndakaonekwa ndanonoka mumutambo uye ndikazviita ndiri mupenyu hachisi chishamiso. Asi handina kubuda murwendo ndisina kukuvadzwa. Pamusoro pekusagadzikana kwepanyama uye kwepamoyo kwandakapfuura nako, semhedzisiro yekurapa kwakadai uye nemwaranzi yakange yatorwa nemazai angu, handizokwanise kuita vana. Ndakanga ndisina nguva yekutombofunga kutonhodza mazai angu ndisati ndamhanyira kurapwa, uye chemo nemwaranzi zvakaparadza muviri wangu.

I can't help but feel that if someone had chaizvo vakanditeerera, uye vasina kundikwesha, semukadzi mudiki, airatidzika kunge ane hutano, vangadai vakakwanisa kuisa zviratidzo zvangu zvese pamwe nekubata kenza nzira kare. Apo chiremba wangu weoncologist paSylvester akaona mhinduro dzangu, akapopota-kuti zvakatora makore matatu kuongorora chimwe chinhu chaigona kuonekwa uye kurapwa zviri nyore. Asi nepo nyaya yangu ichinetsa uye ichiita sekunge, kunyangwe kwandiri, senge ingangove kunze kwemufirimu, haisi nyaya. (Yakabatana: Ndiri Mudiki, Fit Spin Murairidzi-uye Anenge Afa neMoyo Kurwiswa)

Mushure mekubatana nevarwere vegomarara kuburikidza nekurapwa uye pasocial media, ndakadzidza kuti vazhinji vechidiki (vakadzi, kunyanya) vanobviswa kwemwedzi nemakore nemakore navanachiremba vasingatore zviratidzo zvavo zvakanyanya. Ndichitarisa kumashure, dai ndaigona kuzviita zvakare zvekare, ndingadai ndakaenda kuEER nekukurumidza, kuchipatara chakasiyana. Paunoenda kuE ER, vanofanirwa kumhanyisa bvunzo izvo kiriniki yekurumidzira yekuchengetedza isingaite. Zvino pamwe, pamwe pamwe, ndingadai ndakatanga kurapwa kare.

Ndichitarira mberi, ndinonzwa ndine tariro nezveutano hwangu, asi rwendo rwangu rwachinja zvachose munhu wandiri. Kugovera nyaya yangu uye kusimudzira ruzivo rwekutsigira hutano hwako, ndakatanga bhurogu, ndakanyora bhuku uye ndikatogadzira Chemo Kits yevakuru vechidiki vari kuita chemo kuvabatsira kuti vanzwe kutsigirwa uye kuvaita vazive kuti havasi vega.

Pakupera kwezuva, ndinoda kuti vanhu vazive kuti kana iwe uchifunga kuti pane chakaipa nemuviri wako, unenge wakarurama. Uye zvinosiririsa sezvazviri, tinorarama munyika umo iwe unofanirwa kuve mumiriri wehutano hwako. Usandibata zvisirizvo, handisi kuti chiremba wese wepanyika haafanire kuvimbwa naye. Ndingadai ndisiri pandiri nhasi dai pasina maoncologists angu eku Sylvester. Asi iwe unoziva zvakanakira hutano hwako. Usarega mumwe munhu achikunyengetedza neimwe nzira.

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