'Iyo Yakanyanya Kurasika' Mudzidzisi Erica Lugo Pane Nei Kudya Kusagadzikana Kudzoreredza Ihondo Yeupenyu Hwose

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Erica Lugo anoda kuseta zvinyorwa: Akanga asiri muhope yechirwere chake chekudya achioneka semurairidzi pa Kurasikirwa Kukuru muna 2019. Murairidzi wekusimbaradza muviri aive, zvisinei, achisangana nemifungo mizhinji yaakaona seyainetsa uye inogona kuve nengozi.

“Binging and purging ndizvo zvandakaita kwerisingasviki gore, anopfuura makore mashanu apfuura,” anodaro. "Chinhu chimwe chete icho vezvenhau vakaburitsa muchirevo ndechekuti vaiti ndakarwara nedambudziko rekudya pandakanga ndiri pachiratidziro - handina kutambura nedambudziko rekudya pashoo, ndakatambura nepfungwa dzechirwere chekudya pa kuratidza. Pane musiyano mukuru. Semunhu anga aine dambudziko rekudya, pane mhemberero mumusoro mako kana wasvitsa gore usina-kuchena.Ndinogona kuchema nekuti ndapemberera makore mashanu - ndobva ndaverenga chinyorwa ndichiti ndichinacho "Kunenge kurova mbama kumeso nekushanda kwese kwandakaita."

Kunyangwe zvazvo Lugo achizviti akasununguka pamaitiro ekubhinya nekuchenesa ane chekuita nebulimia, haadzivirirwe kudzvinyiriro dzevanhu kana zvinotarisirwa zvisingaite zvinoiswa pavarairidzi kuti vakwane stereotypical aesthetic. Saka apo Instagram troll yakasiya chirevo pane chimwe chezvaakatumira mavhiki mashoma apfuura, akanzwa achimanikidzwa kuchitaura pachena. Iko kutaura kuri mubvunzo? "Unotaridzika kunge muhombe uye usina kuganhurwa. Kune munhu anodya zvine hutano uye achishanda zvakanyanya iwe uri muhombe. Unogona kuda kusave murairidzi wezvehutano." (Yakabatana: Imwe Yakakwana Kufambisa: Erica Lugo's Super Plank Series)

Lugo anoti barb pachayo yakanga isiri yakasarudzika. Anga achifamba netsanangudzo isingagamuchirwe uye isina ruzivo pamusoro pemuviri wake kubva paakarasikirwa neanopfuura mapaundi zana nemakumi mashanu, akapona nechirwere chegomarara regomarara, uye akashandura hupenyu hwake kuti ave mudzidzisi wega wega achitungamira chikuva chekudzidzisa pamhepo, Erica Love Fit - zvese achinyora. ruzivo rwake pasocial media. Asi paakamuka kune iyo chirevo pakutanga kwemwedzi uno, akaiona senguva inodzidzisika.

“Kana mumwe munhu akataura kuti ndiri mukuru uye pamwe handifanirwe kuve murairidzi wezveutano, ndakafunga kuti yave nguva yekuti nditaure nenzou mumba,” anodaro. "Ndakanga ndawana makirogiramu gumi kubva pakutorwa kwemafirimu kwemakore maviri nokuti ndakadzokera kukurapa nekuda kweavo vanodya chirwere chepfungwa. Ndaifanira kushanda pamafungiro nezviito. Mumwe munhu angave asina kushingaira kuva nebulimic kana anorexic, asi izvozvo hazvirevi. "Havana pfungwa kana kuda kutsvaira chikafu kana kudzivirira chikafu kana kushandira kunze kana kuti vari kubatwa senhapwa kune kwavo kufunga kwekusagadzikana. Havangoendi chete."

Mukufunga zvekare, Lugo anogona kuona zvimwe zviratidzo zvekunyevera zvekuti pfungwa dzake dzave kutanga kutsvedza dzichidzokera kunharaunda isina kugadzikana, kunyangwe hazvo asina kumbobvira aita zvishuwo zvekuita hunhu hwebulimic.

"Kana ukarasikirwa nechero mhando yehuremu, unogara uchitya kuti ichadzoka uye unogara uchishanda kuti urambe uine huremu," anodaro. "Ini ndaive neyangu yekumanikidza mukati, 'oh shit, ikozvino ini zvirokwazvo ndinofanira kuchengetedza izvi.' Ndaiverenga twunhu twudiki twese twandaidya nekushanda mazuva matanhatu pasvondo uye ndichiwana nhanho dze X pazuva. Yakanga isiri yakajairika, 'oh ndinoda kufamba uye kudya zvakanaka,' zvaive, 'kwete, Erica, iwe. ndinofanira kuita izvi, 'uye handizvo zvandiri. Ndiri mumwe munhu akafanana,' ikozvino zvawakarasikirwa nehuremu, ita shuwa kuti unozvichengeta nekufambisa muviri wako nekudya zvine hutano, uye kana uine chidimbu pizza, une chidimbu che pizza uye unoenderera mberi. ' Ndosaka pandakapedza nehuratidziro ndakatsvaga rubatsiro zvakare nekuti kuti nditi, 'unofanirwa kumira paX macaloriki kana kurova X huwandu hwekoriori kupisa pawachi yako,' izvo hazvina kujairika kwandiri, uye ndaiziva kuti zvaizodaro. snowball muhunhu hwekare kana ndikaisiya. "

Iye anotenda kuti gumi-pondo huremu kubva mushure mekudzokera kurapi kutanga kwegore rino kwaive kudzoreredzwa kune hutano. Yakanga iri mhedzisiro yekudzokera kunzvimbo yekugadzikana mushure mekunyanya kuomarara nekuverenga macalorie uye kurovedza muviri.

Lugo akatanga kutsvaga kurapwa makore anoda kusvika matanhatu apfuura paakange achirova nekushambidza nguva dzose. "Ndakanga ndatorasa huremu hwese, uye ndaive muhukama hwakashata hwepfungwa," anodaro. "Iyi yaive zvakare nguva iyo Instagram yanga yatanga kutora, vanhu vakatanga kutarisisa 'vanokanganisa,' uye 'kubvuta' kune vanokurudzira kwakava chinhu chakakura chaizvo. Pakati pekumanikidzwa kwehukama hunoshungurudza - hukama hwekutanga "kubva pandakarambana [muna 2014] - uye ndapedza shanduko huru yemuviri, ndakatanga kuverenga mazwi anotyisa epaInternet uye zvakandimanikidza kutsvaga nzira."

Vanoenderera mberi vachiti, "Ndipo pakatanga dambudziko rekudya iri makore anoda kusvika matanhatu apfuura. Ndakarichengeta rakavanzika, rakatora nguva isingasviki gore, uye rakapera nekuti ndaive ndichityira hutano hwangu. Moyo wangu wakatanga kupepereka zvishoma, zvikandityisa. " (Iyo binge-uye-purge mamirioni ebulimia anogona kutungamira kune electrolyte uye kusaenzana kwemakemikari kunogona kukanganisa moyo kushanda, maererano neNational Eating Disorder Association.)

Kunyangwe kurapwa kwakabatsira Lugo pakupedzisira kusununguka pahunhu hwebulimia, chirwere chake chekenza uye chamupupuri chebasa chakatevera zvakamutora kure nekuzvitarisira kuri kuenderera. "Ndakabatwa cancer zuva rakatevera Thanksgiving muna 2018, ndakavhiyiwa muna Ndira 2019, radiation muna Kurume 2019, ndikazotanga. Kurasikirwa Kukuru muna Nyamavhuvhu 2019, "anodaro." Ndakanga ndisina nguva yekuzvitarisira pamwe nepfungwa dzangu - kwaingove kurarama uye nekumhanya paadrenaline, saka ndinofunga ndakarega zvese zvandakadzidza mukurapa kwenguva yakareba zvekuti pfungwa dzekare mapatani akatanga kudzoka. Ndakazvirega kwerinopfuura gore [uye ndinofunga] ndizvo zvakaita kuti idzoke nekuti ndakanga ndisiri kuzvichengeta ini nemafungiro angu. "Izvo zvinongoenda kukuratidza kuti kunyangwe uine chinodhakwa kana kunetseka kupi, chinhu chaunofanira kutora hanya nazvo nekuti chinogona kudzoka kana usinga."

Lugo akatanga kuona pfungwa dzake dzichidzokera munzvimbo yaimunetsa achitora firimu, asi akakwanisa kusazvibata, achidana maturusi aainge agadzira mumakore ake ese ekupora. Kunyange zvakadaro, muedzo wokudzokera kuzviito izvozvo wakanga wakakura.

"Kwanga kusiri kumanikidzwa kwemumwe munhu kunze kwangu, uye chaizvo munhu wese pashoo, kubva kuvagadziri kusvika kunetiweki, aishamisa uye aigara achindiita kuti ndinzwe ndakatsvinda uye ndine mukurumbira," anodaro. "Ndakaisa kumanikidza uku pandiri uye pfungwa idzodzo dzakatanga kudzoka. Ndakamira kurapwa nekuti ndainzwa sekunge ndaidzora. Asi izvo vanhu vasinganzwisise ndezvekuti, unogona kunge usingaite chirwere chekudya, asi pfungwa idzodzo." Hazvisi izvo zvinokutambudza kweupenyu hwako hwese.Zvakangoita kunge dhiabhori mumusoro mangu uye kana ndikatarisa chimwe chikafu, dhiabhori anobva ati, 'o izvo zvinonatsa nyore, izvo zvinouya nyore, 'kana' hei, idya izvi uzvichenese gare gare - hapana anozozviziva. ' "Uye ndicho chimwe chinhu - ndiri kutotanga kubuda maruva ndichitotaura izvozvi nekuti handina kumbobvira ndataura nezvazvo pachena." (Inoenderana: Maitiro eCoronavirus Lockdown Anogona Kukanganisa Kudya Dambudziko Rekutapudza - uye Zvaunogona Kuita Nezvo)

Iyo chaiyo shanduko yakafuridzira Lugo kutsvaga rutsigiro zvakare yakauya mushure mezuva rinotyisa pa set. "Ndanga ndaneta," anodaro. "Ranga riri zuva remaawa gumi neshanu, takange tarasikirwa nedambudziko, uye ini ndaive ndichiri mutsva mukutora firimu - hapana aiziva kuti ndaive pachirongwa, saka ndaifanira kuchiita chakavanzika saka ndaive ndisina wekutaura naye nekuti ini ndaifanira kuichengeta ndisina kuputirwa.Ndakadya chimedu che pizza nekuti taive nezvikafu zvekudya zvehusiku-zvino, uye pakudzokera kumba, yaive maminetsi makumi mana nemashanu, ndakaramba ndichifunga kuti, 'unogona kuenda kumba kunonatsa uye hapana achaziva.' Uye ini ndakagara muchimbuzi nemabvi angu akasungirirwa pachipfuva changu husiku hwese, ndichingofunga, 'Erica, wakashanda kwemakore mashanu, nei pfungwa idzi dzichidzoka?' "Saka pandakadzoka kubva mukutora mifananidzo nekushanya kwenhau, ndakaziva kuti ndaifanira kudzokera kurapi."

Paive nekumwe kutendeuka kwezviitiko zvakasimudzira Lugo kudzokera kurapi, futi. “Mumwe weaimbova shamwarikadzi yemurume wangu akafa nedambudziko rekudya gore rakapera,” anodaro. "Akafa aine makore makumi matatu nemasere-makumi matatu ekuberekwa. Hazvina basa kuti uzviite. Pandakaita makore mashanu ndichibvisa kuchena uye akashaya gore rapfuura, yaive yekumuka kukuru kwandiri kuti ndirambe ndichipora." uye rwendo rwangu uye kugovera vanhu."

Denda parakabata, Lugo akashandisa kumbomira kwaakange arairwa pahunyanzvi hwake kudzorera kupora kwake. "Ndakave nenguva yese iyoyo yekuzvipira kurapa pamhepo," anodaro. "Saka sezvo kukiyiwa kuri chaizvo pandanga ndichidzokera kurapi nekuti izvi hazvimbopfuuri. Kungoti iwe une maturusi ese hazvireve kuti, 'zvakanaka zvaenda."

Lugo anoti mugore nechidimbu apfuura, akakwanisa kuwana tsoka yake zvakare maererano nekurwisa pfungwa dzekudya. "Ndiri munzvimbo inofara zvikuru uye ine hutano uye handisisiri musungwa wezvekudya kana kushandira kunze nguva dzese nekuti ndinorega kumanikidzwa kwacho kuchienda," anodaro. "Ndafunga kuti yave nguva yekuvhura uye ndinoda kuunza ruzivo uye chiedza kune izvi nekuti ndinoziva kana ndakatambura chinyararire, handigone kufungidzira kuti vamwe vanhu vangani vari kutambura chinyararire." (Yakabatana: Erica Lugo's Rwega Rwehuremu-Kurasikirwa Rwendo Runoita Iye Mumwe Wevanonyanya Kuzivikanwa Varairidzi)

Kunyangwe kumuka kwekusagadzikana kwemifungo panguva yekutora firimu, Lugo anoti anokoshesa chikuva Kurasikirwa Kukuru akamupa. "Ndakafara kwazvo kuenda pachiratidziro nekuti kekutanga, pakanga paine murairidzi aive asina matanhatu-pack abs uye aive neganda rakasununguka uye anga asiri saizi 0 kana 2," anodaro. "Zvaipesana netsika, uye ndakazvifarira. Patinenge tichienda kuburikidza nemagariro evanhu, tinogara tichinzwa kuti, 'iyi dhizaini uye iwe hausi kuona kuseri kwezviitiko,' uye vanhu vakatanga kuona kuti ini. kuwedzera huremu kubva pandakanga ndiri paTV, asi chavasingazive ndechekuti ini ndini ndakanyanya kufara uye ndine hutano hwakapfuura hwandati ndambove, uye havazive kuti kune dzakawanda dzakasiyana hondo vanhu vari kuzviisa mukati nekuchengeta. pachavo."

Kune vamwe vangangove vachinetsekana nedambudziko rekudya kana chero mhando yepfungwa dzinonetsa uye maitiro akatenderedza chikafu, maekisesaizi, uremu, kana chimiro chemuviri, Lugo anokurudzira kutsvaga zviwanikwa, zvakaita seNEDA. "Chimwe chemashoko andinofarira ndechekuti, 'chirwere chinokura mune zvakavanzika,' uye kana ukaramba wakavanzika muchivande uye ukaramba kutsvaga rubatsiro, zvinobva zvanyanya kuoma kuti uve nerufaro, hutano hwakanaka kwauri," anodaro. "Uye" hutano "hazvireve saizi yemabhurugwa; zvinoreva kuti uri kurarama sei? Uri kuzvida zvakadii iwe? Kana kuti uri kurwara muchivande? Unogona kutsvaga rubatsiro uye wese munhu anotambura kusvika padanho, kunyangwe izvi zvichireva kudzora macalorie. "

Kana uri kunetseka nekudya, unogona kufonera National Eating Disorders Helpline mahara pa (800)-931-2237, taura nemumwe munhu pa myneda.org/helpline-chat, kana kutumira NEDA ku741-741 24/7 rutsigiro rwematambudziko.

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