Gabourey Sidibe Anovhura Nezve Hondo Yake neBulimia uye Kushungurudzika MuNew Memoir

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Gabourey Sidibe rave izwi rine simba muHollywood kana zvasvika kune muviri positivity-uye yakagara yakavhurika nezve runako rwese nezve kuzviona-wega. Ipo iye zvino achizivikanwa nekuvimba kwake kunotapukira uye kusarega-kurega maitiro (mhedzisiro: mhinduro yake inoshamisa kune yake Lane Bryant ad), mutambi wemakore makumi matatu nematatu ari kuratidza divi rake risina akamboona mundangariro yake itsva, Uku Kungori Chiso Changu: Edza Kusatarisa.

Pamwe nekuburitsa pachena kuti akavhiyiwa kuderedza uremu, mumiriri weOscar akavhura nezve dambudziko rake rehutano hwepfungwa uye dambudziko rekudya.

"Hechino chinhu pamusoro pekurapa uye nei yakakosha," anonyora mumemoir yake. "Ndinoda amai vangu, asi pane zvakawanda zvandisingagoni kutaura navo. Handina kukwanisa kuvaudza kuti ndakanga ndisingagoni kurega kuchema uye kuti ndaivenga zvose nezvangu." (Buda Vanhu chikamu kubva mubhuku rekuteerera.)

"Pandakatanga kumuudza kuti ndaive ndakaora moyo, akandiseka. Zvazviri. Kwete nekuti iye munhu anotyisa, asi nekuti aifunga kuti kwaive kuseka," akaenderera mberi. "Ndingatadza sei kunzwa zvirinani ndiri ndega, saiye, seshamwari dzake, sevanhuwo zvavo? Saka ndangoramba ndichifunga pfungwa dzangu dzakasuruvara-pfungwa dzekufa."

Sidibe anoenderera mberi achibvuma kuti hupenyu hwake hwakachinja zvakanyanya paakatanga kukoreji. Pamwe nekutya kwekutya, akarega kudya, dzimwe nguva asingadyi kwemazuva panguva.

“Kazhinji pandainzwa shungu dzekuti ndirege kuchema, ndainwa girazi remvura ndodya chimedu chechingwa, ndochikanda mudenga,” anonyora kudaro. "Mushure mokunge ndadaro, ndakanga ndisisina kusuruvara zvakare; ini ndakazorora. Saka handina kana chandakambodya, kudzamara ndaida kurasa-uye pandakazozvigona ndipo pandakakwanisa kuzvivhiringidza kubva pane chero kufunga kwaitenderera mumusoro mangu."

Yakanga isiri nguva refu gare gare apo Sidibe akazotendeukira kune imwe nyanzvi yehutano iyo yakamuudza kuti ane kuora mwoyo uye bulimia mushure mokunge abvuma kuti aiva nepfungwa dzokuzviuraya, anotsanangura kudaro.

"Ndakawana chiremba ndikamuudza zvese zvaive zvakashata neni. Handina kumbobvira ndadzika pasi rose runyorwa kare, asi sekuzvinzwa kwandakaita, ndaigona kuona kuti kubata neizvi ndega kwaive kusisiri kuita," anonyora. "Chiremba akandibvunza kana ndaida kuzviuraya. Ndikati," Meh, handisati. Asi kana ndadaro, ndinoziva kuti ndichazviita sei. "

"Ini ndanga ndisingatyi kufa, uye dai paine bhatani ini ndingadai ndakasundira kubvisa hupenyu hwangu kubva pasi, ndingadai ndakaisundira nekuti zvaizove nyore uye zvisina kushatisa pane kuzvigumbura. Sekureva kwachiremba, zvanga zvakwana."

Kubva ipapo, Sidibe akaisa simba rakawanda mukugadzirisa hutano hwake hwepfungwa nekuenda kurapi nguva dzose uye kutora mishonga yekudzvinyirira, iye anogoverana mune memoir.

Kuvhura nezvekurwira kwako sehutano hwepfungwa hakumbofi kuri nyore. Saka Sidibe zvirokwazvo anofanirwa nemhere-mhere yekutamba chikamu chake mukubvisa ruzvidzo rwakatenderedza nyaya iyi (a cause mamwe maelebs akaita saKristen Bell naDemi Lovato vanga vachitaura zvekare nguva pfupi yadarika. vane matambudziko ehutano hwepfungwa uye vazivise kuti havasi vega.

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