Chinhu Chakanakisa Chaakandidzidzisa Baba Vangu Chaive Kurarama Pasina Iye

Zvemukati

• Kupfuura mupi
• Tora 2 chirwere cheshuga chinotora
• Mavhiki ekupedzisira
• "Ndibaba vangu"

Baba vangu vaive nehunhu hwakakura. Aive ane shungu uye akasimba, aitaura nemaoko ake, uye aiseka nemuviri wake wese. Akatadza kana kugara pasi. Aive mukomana iyeye akapinda mukamuri uye munhu wese aiziva kuti aivemo. Aive nemutsa uye nehanya, asi kazhinji zvakare asina kuongororwa. Aitaura kune chero munhu uye wese munhu, uye ovasiya vachinyemwerera… kana kushamisika.

Semwana mudiki, aizadza imba yedu nekuseka munguva dzakanaka nedzakashata. Aitaura nezwi rakakora patafura yekudya kwemanheru uye pamakwikwi emota. Akatosiya mameseji anoshamisa uye anonakidza pavoicemail yebasa pandakawana basa rangu rekutanga rekugadzirisa. Ndinoshuva dai ndaigona kuvateerera zvino.

Aive akavimbika uye akazvipira murume kuna amai vangu. Aive baba vane rudo zvisingaite kune mukoma wangu, hanzvadzi yangu, neni. Rudo rwake rwemitambo rwakakwenenzverwa patiri tese, uye akabatsira kutisanganisa nenzira yakadzika. Isu taigona kutaura zvemitambo kwemaawa kumagumo - zvibodzwa, zano, makochi, Refs, nezvose zviri pakati. Izvi zvakatungamira mukutaura nezvechikoro, mimhanzi, zvematongerwo enyika, chitendero, mari, uye vakomana. Takakwikwidzana nemaonero edu akasiyana. Idzi hurukuro dzaiwanzo kupera mune mumwe munhu achipopota. Aiziva kupusha mabhatani angu, ndikakurumidza kudzidza kupusha rake.

Kupfuura mupi

Baba vangu vanga vasina degree rekukoreji. Aive mutengesi (achitengesa ma accounting peg board system, ayo asisashandiswe) aipa hupenyu hwepakati nepakati kumhuri yangu zvachose pakutumwa. Izvi zvichiri kundishamisa nanhasi.

Basa rake raimubvumidza iye hwomutambarakede hweshanduko purogiramu, izvo zvaireva kuti aigona kuve aripo mushure mechikoro ozozviita kune edu ese zviitiko. Mota yedu yakakwira kune softball uye basketball mitambo zvino ndangariro dzakakosha: baba vangu chete neni, takadzika mukukurukurirana kana kuimba pamwe nemumhanzi wake. Ndine chokwadi chekuti hanzvadzi yangu neni taingova vega vasikana vechidiki muma90s avo vaiziva rwiyo rwese rweRolling Stones pane yavo huru hits tepi. "Haugone Kuwana Izvo Zvaunoda" achiri kusvika kwandiri pese pandinonzwa.

Chinhu chakanakisa chavakandidzidzisa iye naamai vangu kukoshesa hupenyu nekutenda kune vanhu varimo. Pfungwa yavo yekutenda - yekurarama, uye yerudo - yaive yakanyorwa matiri pakutanga. Baba vangu vaimbopota vachitaura nezvekunyorwa muHondo yeVietnam paakanga ari mumakore ake ekutanga makumi maviri, uye aifanira kusiya musikana wake (amai vangu) kumashure. Haana kumbofunga kuti angazviita pamba zviri zvipenyu. Akanzwa rombo rakanaka kumira muJapan achishanda sechiremba, kunyangwe hazvo basa rake raisanganisira kutora nhoroondo dzekurapa kwemasoja akakuvara uye kuzivisa avo vakaurayiwa muhondo.

Ini handina kunzwisisa kuti izvi zvakamubata zvakadii kusvika mavhiki ekupedzisira ehupenyu hwake.

Vabereki vangu vakaenderera mberi nekuroora baba vachangopedza kushanda nguva yavo muchiuto. Vanenge makore gumi vari muwanano yavo, vakayeuchidzwa zvakare nezvekukosha kwenguva yavo pamwe chete apo amai vangu vakaonekwa vaine cancer 3 yemazamu yechitambo pazera remakore makumi matatu nemashanu. Ndiine vana vatatu vari pasi pemakore mapfumbamwe, izvi zvakavazunza pamoyo. Mushure mekurumwa kwepamuviri uye kurapwa, amai vangu vakaramba vachirarama kwemamwe makore makumi maviri nematanhatu.

Tora 2 chirwere cheshuga chinotora

Makore gare gare, apo amai vangu vaive nemakore makumi matanhatu nerimwe, gomarara ravo rakasimbiswa, uye vakashaya. Izvi zvakaputsa moyo wababa vangu. Aifungidzira kuti aizofa pamberi pake kubva kurudzi rwechipiri chirwere cheshuga, icho chaaizokura pakati pemakumi mana emakore.

Kwemakore makumi maviri nematatu zvichitevera chirwere chake cheshuga cheshuga, baba vangu vakagadzirisa mamiriro acho nemushonga uye insulin, asi ivo vaidzivirira zvakanyanya kuchinja chikafu chavo. Akaitawo BP, izvo zvinowanzoitika nekuda kwechirwere cheshuga chisina kudzora. Chirwere cheshuga zvishoma nezvishoma chakabata muviri wake, zvichikonzera chirwere cheshuga neuropathy (chinokonzeresa kukuvara kwemitsipa) uye chirwere cheshuga retinopathy (chinokonzera kurasikirwa kwemaonero). Makore gumi muchirwere, itsvo dzake dzakatanga kukundikana.

Gore mushure mekurasikirwa naamai vangu, vakapfuura nekapetwa kanopfuura, ndokurarama mamwe makore matatu. Munguva iyoyo, aipedza maawa mana pazuva achiwana dialysis, kurapwa kunodiwa kuti urarame apo itsvo dzako dzisisashande.

Makore mashoma apfuura ehupenyu hwababa vangu aive akaoma kupupura. Kunyanya kushungurudza moyo kwaive kutarisa imwe yake pizzazz uye simba fizzle kure. Ndakabva pakuedza kuramba ndichimhanya naye nekumhanya ndichipfuura nepakati pekupaka kumusundira pawiricheya chero kuburitswa kwaida nhanho dzinopfuura.

Kwenguva yakareba, ndakazvibvunza kana zvese izvo zvatinoziva nhasi pamusoro pekugadziriswa kwechirwere cheshuga zvaizivikanwa paakaonekwa mumakore e80, angadai akazvitarisira zvirinani? Angadai akararama kwenguva yakareba here? Zvichida kwete. Ini nevanun'una vangu neni takaedza zvakaoma kuti baba vangu vachinje madyiro avo uye kuti vaite maekisesaizi zvakanyanya, zvikashaya basa. Mukufunga kumashure, yaive yakarasika chikonzero. Akange ararama hupenyu hwake hwese - uye makore mazhinji aine chirwere cheshuga - asina kuita shanduko, saka sei angadai akatanga pakarepo?

Mavhiki ekupedzisira

Mavhiki ekupedzisira ehupenyu hwake akaita ichi chokwadi pamusoro pake ruzha uye chakajeka kwandiri. Dhiyabhorosi neuropathy mutsoka dzake yakanga yakonzeresa kukuvara kukuru zvekuti rutsoka rwake rweruboshwe rwaida kudimburwa. Ndinoyeuka kuti akanditarisa ndokuti, "Kwete, Cath. Usavarega vazviite. Mukana we12 muzana wekupora iboka reB.S. ”

Asi kana tikaramba kuvhiyiwa, angadai akarwadziwa zvakanyanya kwemazuva asara ehupenyu hwake. Hatina kukwanisa kubvumira izvozvo. Zvakadaro ini ndichiri kushungurudzwa nenyaya yekuti akarasikirwa netsoka yake chete kuti ararame kwemamwe mavhiki mashoma.

Asati avhiyiwa, akatendeukira kwandiri ndokuti, "Kana ndikasabuda muno, usadikitira mwana. Unoziva, chikamu chehupenyu. Hupenyu hunoenderera mberi."

Ini ndaida kuridza mhere, "Ndiro boka reB.S."

Mushure mekudimburwa, baba vangu vakapedza vhiki vari muchipatara vachipora, asi havana kuzogadzirisa zvakakwana kuti vadzosere kumba. Akaendeswa kunzvimbo inochengeterwa varwere. Mazuva ake ikoko kwaive kwakaomarara. Akapedzisira ave neronda rakaipa kumusana kwake iro rakatapukirwa neMRSA. Uye kunyangwe hazvo mamiriro ake ari kuramba achiipa, akaramba achiwana dialysis kwemazuva mazhinji.

Munguva iyi, aigara achiunza "varombo vakomana vakarasikirwa nemitezo uye vanogara mu'nam." Aitaura zvakare nezve rombo rakanaka raakasangana naro naamai vangu uye kuti "aigona sei kumirira kumuona zvakare." Dzimwe nguva, akanakisa wake aipenya, uye aizoita kuti ndisekwe pasi seizvo zvese zvaive zvakanaka.

"Ndibaba vangu"

Mazuva mashoma baba vangu vasati vashaya, vanachiremba vavo vakavapa zano rekuti kumisa dialysis ndiko "chinhu chine hunhu kuita." Kunyangwe kuita izvi kwaizoreva kufa kwehupenyu hwake, takawirirana. Vakadaro baba vangu. Kuziva kuti aive ave pedyo nerufu, ini nevanun'una vangu uye ini takaedza zvakaoma kutaura zvinhu zvakanaka uye kuona kuti vashandi vekurapa vaita zvese zvavaigona kuti vamuchengetedze.

“Tinogona kumuchinjisa pamubhedha zvakare? Unogona here kumuunzira imwe mvura? Tingawedzera here mumwe wake mushonga wemarwadzo? ” taibvunza. Ndinoyeuka mubatsiri wemukoti achindimisa mukoridho kunze kwemba yababa vangu kuti, "Ndinogona kukuudza unomuda zvikuru."

"Ehe. Ndibaba vangu. "

Asi mhinduro yake yakagara neni kubva ipapo. “Ndinoziva ndibaba vako. Asi ndinogona kuona kuti munhu akakosha kwazvo kwauri. ” Ndakatanga kubhowekana.

Ini ndaisaziva kuti ndaizoenda sei ndisina baba vangu. Mune dzimwe nzira, kufa kwake kwakadzosa marwadzo ekurasikirwa naamai vangu, uye akandimanikidza kusangana nekuziva kuti ivo vaviri vaenda, kuti hapana kana mumwe wavo aive azviita kupfuura makore makumi matanhatu. Hapana kana mumwe wavo aigona kuzonditungamira kuburikidza nemubereki. Hapana kana mumwe wavo akamboziva vana vangu.

Asi baba vangu, vakatendeka pahunhu hwavo, vakaunza mamwe maonero.

Mazuva mashoma asati afa, ndaigara ndichimubvunza kana pane chaaida uye kuti aive aine hutano here. Akandidimbudzira ndokuti, "Teerera. Iwe, munin'ina wako nemunin'ina wako muchange musina mhosva, handiti? ”

Akadzokorora mubvunzo uyu kashoma nekutaridza kupererwa pachiso chake. Munguva iyoyo, ndakaona kuti kusagadzikana uye kutarisana nerufu kwaisava kunetsekana kwake. Chainyanya kumutyisa kwaive kusiya vana vake - kunyangwe isu taive vakuru - pasina vabereki vanovatarisa.

Pakarepo, ndakanzwisisa kuti chaaida zvakanyanya aisave ekuti ndive nechokwadi chekuti aive akasununguka, asi kuti ini ndimusimbise kuti tichazogara semazuva ese iye aenda. Kuti isu hatingatenderi kufa kwake kuti kutitadzise kubva kurarama hupenyu hwedu kune kuzere. Izvo, kunyangwe paine matambudziko ehupenyu, ingave hondo kana chirwere kana kurasikirwa, isu taizotevedzera yake naamai vedu kutungamira uye kuramba tichichengeta vana vedu sekugona kwedu kwataiziva. Kuti tinenge takaonga hupenyu ne rudo. Kuti tingawane kuseka mune ese mamiriro, kunyangwe iwo akasviba. Kuti isu taizorwa kuburikidza neese ehupenyu B.S. pamwe chete.

Ndipo pandakasarudza kudonhedza "Wakagwinya here?" taura, uye ndakashinga hushingi ndokuti, "Hongu, Baba. Tese tichanaka. "

Sezvo ziso rerunyararo rakatora chiso chake, ndakaenderera mberi, "Iwe wakatidzidzisa isu kuva. "Zvakanaka kurega izvozvi."

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