Kana mukadzi wechidiki aine cancer

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SHAPE inoshuma nekusuwa kuti munyori Kelly Golat, 24, akafa nekenza musi waNovember 20, 2002. Vazhinji venyu makatiudza kuti makafemerwa sei nenyaya yaKelly pachake, "When a Young Woman Has Cancer (Time Out, August), inoratidzwa. pazasi .Kelly akataura kuti kuongororwa kwake aine malignant melanoma kwakamupa sei kukoshesa kukoshesa nguva yaakapedza aine mhuri uye shamwari.Kelly akasiya vabereki vake nevanun'una vake vana, avo munguva pfupi yadarika vakawana zvimwe zvezvinyorwa zvake zvisina kuburitswa. : Ndinonamatira zuva nezuva chishamiso chehupenyu ... Ipapo ndinoona kuti ndiri kurarama iye zvino." Nyaradzo yedu inoenda kumhuri yake.

Ndine makore makumi maviri nemana ekuberekwa. Musi waMay 18, 2001, chiremba wangu akandiudza kuti ndaiva nekenza. Malignant melanoma. X-ray yakaratidza bundu rakakura seorenji rakagara pamusoro pemapapu angu. Kumwe kuyedza kwakaratidza mamota mashoma akati wandei muchiropa changu. Chinhu chaishamisa ndechekuti ndakanga ndisina maronda eganda.

Nei ndawana izvi? Vakanga vasingazivi. Ndakazviwana sei? Havana kukwanisa kundiudza. Mushure memibvunzo yese nemiyedzo, mhinduro chete yakapihwa navanachiremba ndeyekuti, "Kelly, you are a bizarre case."

Zvinoshamisa. Izwi rimwe chete rinoratidzika kunge rinopfupisa mamiriro angu gore rapfuura.

Ndisati ndanzwa iyi kenza nhau, ndakararama hupenyu hwakajairika kune mumwe musikana makumi maviri. Ndakanga ndiri gore rimwe ndichibuda kukoreji, ndichishanda semupepeti wenhau pane imwe kambani yekutsikisa muNew York City. Ndaiva nemukomana uye boka reshamwari raityisa.

Zvese zvaive zvakarongeka kunze kwechinhu chimwe chete -- uye zvine musoro kutaura kuti ndakanga ndanyanya kufunga: Ndakapedzwa chose nekunatsa uremu hwangu, chiso changu nebvudzi rangu. Mangwanani ari ose na5 a.m., ndaimhanya mamaira matatu nehafu ndisati ndaenda kubasa. Mushure mebasa, ndaimhanya kuenda kujimu kuitira kuti ndisanonoka kukirasi-yeroerobics kirasi. Ndakanga ndiri munhu anonyanyisa pamusoro pezvandakadya zvakare: Ndakanzvenga shuga, mafuta uye, denga raramba, mafuta.

Girazi raive muvengi wangu mukuru. Nemusangano wega wega ini ndakawana zvimwe zvikanganiso. Ndakatora imwe yemubhadharo wangu wekutanga, ndikapinda muBloomingdale ndikatenga mazana maviri emadhora ekugadzira, netarisiro yekuti hupfu hutsva nemakirimu neimwe nzira zvaizobvisa zvikanganiso zvandakazvarwa ndinazvo. Stress yakauyawo nekunetsekana nevhudzi rangu rakatetepa, rebrown. Zano rinobatsira kubva kushamwari rakanditungamira kumusuwo wemushandi webvudzi anodhura kwazvo muGreenwich Village. Zano rake rakadhura kupfuura mubhadharo wangu wevhiki asi, runako rwangu, iwo asinganyatsooneka (iwo aungatomboona) akashanda mashiripiti!

Uku kushushikana nemabatiro andakaita kwakadzima mushure mekuziva kuti ndaive nekenza. Zvinhu muhupenyu hwangu zvakachinja zvakanyanya. Ndaifanira kurega kushanda. Makemikari akarapwa muviri wangu uye nguva zhinji zvakandisiya ndisina simba zvekutaura. Vanachiremba vairambidza chero rudzi rwekuneta kwekurovedza muviri - joko rinonakidza uchifunga kuti ndaisagona kufamba. Iyo mishonga yaikanganisa kudya kwangu. Chikafu chete chandaigona mudumbu masangweji echizi nemapichisi. Somugumisiro, ndakarasikirwa zvakakomba uremu. Uye pakanga pasisina chikonzero chekunetseka pamusoro pebvudzi rangu zvakare: Yakawanda yaive yadonha.

Rave gore kubva pandakatanga kunzwa nhau, uye ndinoramba ndichirwira nzira yangu yekudzokera kuhutano. Pfungwa yangu ye "zvakakosha" yakashandurwa zvachose. Gomarara randisundidzira mukona umo mhinduro dzinouya nekukurumidza uye nyore: Chii chinonyanya kukosha muhupenyu hwangu? Nguva yakapedzwa nemhuri uye neshamwari. Kuita chii? Kupemberera mazuva ekuzvarwa, mazororo, hupenyu. Kukoshesa hurukuro imwe neimwe, kadhi reKisimusi, kumbundira.

Kunetsekana pamusoro pemafuta emuviri, kumeso kwakanaka uye nebvudzi rakakwana - kwaenda. Handisisina basa nazvo. Zvinoshamisa sei.

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