Ndakaonekwa ndiine pfari Ndisingatombozive kuti ndaive ndava nepfari

Zvemukati

• Kurwira Hutano Hwangu
• Kuziva Pakanga Paine Dambudziko
• Kudzidza Kuti Ini Ndanga Ndichigwinha
• Kuongororwa Nepfari
• Kurarama Kwandakaita neKuongororwa
• Zvandakadzidza
• Ongororo ye

Musi wa29 Gumiguru 2019, ndakabatwa nepfari. Ndakagara ndakatarisana nachiremba wangu wetsinga paBrigham neWomen Hospital muBoston, maziso angu achinyatsogadzikana uye moyo uchirwadza, paakandiudza kuti ndaive nechirwere chisingarapike chandaizofanira kugara nacho kweupenyu hwangu hwese.

Ndakasiya hofisi yake ndiine tsamba yekunyorera, akati wandei mabrochure emapoka ekutsigira, uye nemiriyoni yemibvunzo: "Hupenyu hwangu huchachinja zvakadii?" "Vanhu varikufungei?" “Ndichazombonzwazve here?”—ndaza yacho inopfuurira.

Ndinoziva vanhu vazhinji vanoonekwa kuti vane chirwere chisingaperi havana kuzvigadzirira, asi pamwe chakaita kuti zvinyanye kundivhundusa ndechekuti ndakanga ndisingatozive kuti ndaive nepfari kusvika mwedzi miviri yapfuura.

Kurwira Hutano Hwangu

Vazhinji-vezera ramakore makumi maviri nematanhatu vanonzwa kunge vasingakundike. Ndinoziva ndakadaro. Mupfungwa dzangu, ini ndaive muenzaniso wehutano: Ndakashanda kanokwana kana katanhatu pavhiki, ndaidya chikafu chakaringana, ndaidzidzira kuzvichengeta uye ndaichengetedza hutano hwangu hwepfungwa nekugara ndichienda kurapa.

Ipapo, munaKurume 2019, zvese zvakachinja.

Kwemwedzi miviri, ndakanga ndichirwara—kutanga ndiine hosha yenzeve ndokuzoita mapande maviri (hungu, maviri) efuruu. Sezvo iyi yanga isiri yangu yekutanga furuwenza yakatarisana pasi (#tbt kunguruve furuwenza muna '09), ndaiziva-kana kuti ini kufunga Ini ndaiziva-izvo zvekutarisira pakupora. Asi, kunyangwe fivha nekupindwa nechando zvapera, hutano hwangu hwakaita sehusina kusimba. Panzvimbo pekuwanazve simba rangu uye simba sezvanga zvichitarisirwa, ini ndaigara ndakaneta uye ndikaita kusanzwisisika kwekunzwika mumakumbo angu. Kuongororwa kweropa kwakaratidza kuti ndaive nekushomeka kwakakomba kweB-12 — iyo yakange yaenda isina kuzivikanwa kwenguva yakareba zvekuti yakakanganisa masimba angu zvakanyanya ndokusvika pakukuvadza tsinga dzemumakumbo angu. Nepo kushomeka kweB-12 kwakajairika, zvisingaverengeki zvakaipa zveropa hazvigone kubatsira magwaro kuona kuti nei ndakanga ndisina kukwana pakutanga. (Zvakafanana: Nei B Mavhitamini Ari Chakavanzika kune Rakawanda Simba)

Nechemumoyo, mhinduro yaive nyore: vhiki nevhiki B-12 kupfura kusimudza mazinga angu. Mushure memwero mishomanana, kurapwa kwacho kwairatidzika kunge kuri kushanda uye, mushure memwedzi mishomanana, kwakabudirira. Pakupera kwaMay, ndakanga ndava kufunga zvakajeka zvakare, ndichinzwa ndawedzerwa simba, uye ndichinzwa kusanyanya kurira mumakumbo angu. Nepo kukuvara kwetsinga kwakanga kusingagadzirisiki, zvinhu zvakanga zvava kutanga kuita zvakanaka uye, kwemavhiki mashomanana, upenyu hwakadzokera kune zvakajairika—kureva kuti, kutozosvikira rimwe zuva tichinyora nyaya, nyika yakasviba.

Zvakaitika nekukurumidza. Imwe nguva ndakanga ndichiona mazwi achizadza chidzitiro chekombuta pamberi pangu sezvandakamboita kakawanda zvisati zvaitika, uye inotevera, ndakanzwa kukwira kukuru kwemanzwiro kusimuka kubva mugomba redumbu rangu. Zvakaita sokuti mumwe munhu akanga andipa nhau dzinotyisa zvikuru munyika yose—saka ndakarega kurova-rova keyboard ndisingazivi. Maziso angu akasvinura, uye ndanga ndave nechokwadi chekuti ndaizotanga kupopota zvisina tsarukano. Asi ipapo, ndakatanga kuona tunnel chiratidzo uye pakupedzisira ndisingakwanise kuona zvese, kunyangwe maziso angu aive akavhurika.  

Pandakazosvika—angave masekonzi kana maminetsi gare gare, handisati ndaziva—ndakanga ndakagara padhesiki rangu uye pakarepo ndakatanga kuchema. Sei? Kwete. a. clue. Ini ndakanga ndisingazive kuti WTF yakangoitika, asi ndakazviudza kuti pamwe yaingova mhedzisiro yezvese muviri wangu waive wapfuura mumwedzi mishoma yapfuura. Nekudaro, ndakatora chinguva kuti ndizviunganidze, ndokukachira kusvika pakupera kwemvura, ndokuenderera ndichitaipa kure. (Zvakafanana: Nei Ndichichemera Pasina Chikonzero? 5 Zvinhu Zvinogona Kukonzera Kuchema Zviperengo)

Asi zvakazoitika zvakare zuva rakatevera—uye zuva rakatevera racho uye zuva rakatevera racho uye, nokukurumidza, izvi “zvikamu” sezvandakazvidana, zvakawedzera. Pandakadzima, ndainzwa mumhanzi wanga usiri kutamba IRL uye nemifananidzo yemumvuri ichitaura kune mumwe nemumwe, asi ndakatadza kuziva zvavaitaura. Zvinonzwika senge hope dzehusiku, ndinoziva. Asi haina kunzwa senge imwe. Kana paine chero chinhu, ini ndainzwa kufara chero pandakapinda mune ino yekurota-senge nyika. Zvakakomba—ndakanzwa saka ndakafara kuti, kunyange mukunyepedzera, ndakafunga kuti ndiri kunyemwerera. Pakarepo pandakabuda mazviri, zvisinei, ndakanzwa kusuwa kukuru uye kutya, uko kwaiwanzoteverwa nokusvotekana kwakanyanyisa.

Pese pazvaiitika ndaingova ndega. Chiitiko chese chaishamisa uye chakashamisa zvekuti ndakazeza kuudza chero munhu nezvazvo. Kutaura chokwadi, ndainzwa kunge ndaizopenga.

Kuziva Pakanga Paine Dambudziko

Huya July, ndakatanga kukanganwa zvinhu. Dai ini nemurume wangu taikurukura mangwanani, ndaisakwanisa kurangarira hurukuro yedu husiku. Shamwari nenhengo dzemhuri dzakaratidza kuti ndaigara ndichizvidzokorora, ndichiunza misoro nezviitiko zvatakanga tatotaura nezvazvo kwenguva yakareba maminetsi kana maawa apfuura. Iyo chete tsananguro inogoneka yezvese zvandichangowana ndangariro kunetsekana? “Zviitiko” zvinodzokororwa—izvo, pasinei zvapo nokuitika nguva dzose, zvakanga zvichiri chakavanzika kwandiri. Ndakatadza kuziva kuti chii chakavaunza kana kutomisa imwe mhando yemhando. Panguva iyi, zvaiitika pamaawa ese ezuva, zuva rega rega, zvisinei nekwandaiva kana zvandaiita.

Saka, unenge mwedzi mushure mekutanga kudzima magetsi, ini ndakazopedzisira ndaudza murume wangu. Asi zvaive zvisati zvaitika kusvikira iye anyatsozvionera ega kuti iye-uye neni-takanyatsonzwisisa kukomba kwemamiriro ezvinhu. Heino rondedzero yemurume wangu yechiitiko ichi, sezvo ini ndichiri ndisingayeuke chiitiko ichi: Zvakaitika pandakamira pasinki yedu yekugezera. Apedza kundishevedzera kakati kuti sans-response, murume wangu akananga kuchimbuzi kuti atarise, ndokundiwana, mapendekete akarembera, akatarisa pasi asina chinhu, achirovanisa miromo yangu pamwe chete ndichimedzera mate. Akauya kuseri kwangu ndokundibata mapendekete achiedza kundizunza. Asi ndakabva ndangodzokera mumaoko ake, ndisisadaire zvachose, maziso angu akanga ava kubwaira zvisingaite.

Pakapera maminetsi ndisati ndamuka. Asi kwandiri, nguva yakapfuura yaiita kunge bofu.

Kudzidza Kuti Ini Ndanga Ndichigwinha

MunaAugust (angangoita mavhiki maviri gare gare), ndakaenda kunoona chiremba wangu wekutanga. Pashure pokumuudza nezvezviratidzo zvangu, akabva angondiendesa kuna chiremba wetsinga, sezvaaifungidzira kuti “zviitiko” izvi zvingangove zvaiva zvekupfava.

"Kufenda? Aiwa," ndakapindura ipapo ipapo. Kugwinha kunoitika kana ukawira pasi wogwinha gwinha uchipupuma furo pamuromo. Ndakanga ndisati ndamboona chinhu chakadai muhupenyu hwangu! Aya maroto-kunge kudzima magetsi had kuva chimwe chinhu. (Yambiro yeSpoiler: vanga vasipo, asi handina kuzowana kuongororwa kweimwe mwedzi miviri mushure mekunge ndawana nguva yekusangana nachiremba wetsinga.)

Zvichakadaro, Chiremba weChiremba wangu akagadzirisa manzwisisiro angu, achitsanangura kuti zvandakanga ndichangobva kutsanangura i tonic-clonic kana grand-mal seizure. Nepo mamiriro ekudonha-ipapo-ekugwinha ari izvo zvinouya mupfungwa kune vanhu vazhinji pavanofunga zvekugwinha, ingori mhando imwechete yekubatwa.

Nekutsanangurwa, kubvuta kusadzora kwemagetsi kusingadzorwi muuropi, akatsanangura. Mhando dzekubatwa (pane dzakawanda) dzinopatsanurwa kuita zvikamu zviviri zvakakura: Kubatwa kwakajairika, kunotanga mumativi ese ehuropi, uye kufenda kwakanyanya, kunotanga mune imwe nzvimbo yehuropi. Iko kune zvakare kune akati wandei madiki ekubatwa-kwese uko kwakasiyana kune kumwe - mukati mega chikamu. Ucharangarira izvo tonic-clonic kubatwa kwandangotaura nezvako? Zvakanaka, izvo zvinowira pasi pe "generalized sezures" amburera uye zvinowanzokonzera kurasikirwa kwekuziva kana chikamu, maererano neEpilepsy Foundation. Munguva yekumwe kubatwa, zvisinei, iwe unogona kuramba wakamuka uye uchiziva. Zvimwe zvinokonzeresa zvinorwadza, zvinodzokororwa, kufamba kwekuvhunduka, nepo zvimwe zvichisanganisa kusanzwisisika kunogona kukanganisa pfungwa dzako, kungave kunzwa, kuona, kuravira, kubata, kana kunhuwidza. Uye hausiwo mutambo weizvi kana izvo-chokwadi, vamwe vanhu vanongosangana nechinhu chimwe chete chekubatwa, asi vamwe vanhu vanogona kuve nekubatwa kwakasiyana kwakasiyana kunoratidza nenzira dzakasiyana, sekureva kweCenters for Disease Control and Prevention (CDC) .

Zvichienderana nezvandakagovera nezvezviratidzo zvangu, Chiremba wangu akati ndingangove ndiine imwe mhando yekubatwa nehope, asi kuti taizofanira kuita ongororo uye kubvunza chiremba wetsinga kuti tive nechokwadi. Akandirongera chiratidzo cheelectroencephalogram (EEG), chinoongorora kushanda kwemagetsi muuropi, uye magnetic resonance imaging (MRI), inoratidza kuchinja kupi nokupi kwemaitiro muuropi kungava kune chokuita nepfari idzi.

Iyo 30-miniti EEG yakadzoka yakajairwa, iyo yaifanira kutarisirwa sezvo ini ndisina kubatwa panguva yekunyora. MRI, kune rumwe rutivi, yakaratidza kuti hippocampus yangu, chikamu che temporal lobe inodzora kudzidza uye ndangariro, yakakuvadzwa. Uku kukanganiswa, kunozivikanwa se hippocampal sclerosis, kunogona kutungamira mukubatwa nehope, kunyangwe zvisiri izvo kune wese munhu.

Kuongororwa Nepfari

Kwemwedzi miviri yakatevera, ndakagara pane ruzivo rwekuti paive nechimwe chinhu chakasarudzika nehuropi hwangu. Panguva ino, zvese zvandaiziva ndezvekuti EEG yangu yaive yakajairika, yangu MRI yakaratidza kusagadzikana, uye ini ndaisanzwisisa kuti chero izvi zvairevei kusvikira ndaona nyanzvi. Panguva iyi, pfari dzangu dzakawedzera. Ndakabva pakuva nerimwe zuva kusvika pakuva nevanoverengeka, dzimwe nguva kudzokera shure uye imwe neimwe inogara chero kupi zvako pakati pemasekonzi makumi matatu kusvika kumaminitsi maviri.

Pfungwa dzangu dzakanzwa fog, ndangariro dzangu dzakaramba dzichinditadza, uye nenguva yaNyamavhuvhu kutenderera, kutaura kwangu kwakarova. Kugadzira mitsara yakakosha kwaida simba rangu rese uye kunyangwe zvakadaro, vaisazobuda sezvazvaida. Ndakave wekutanga-kutya kutaura saka handina kuzouya semunhu mbeveve.

Kunze kwokunetseka mupfungwa nomupfungwa, pfari dzangu dzakandikanganisa mumuviri. Izvo zvakakonzera ini kudonha, kurova musoro wangu, kubondera muzvinhu, uye kuzvipisa ini mushure mekurasikirwa nekuziva panguva isiri iyo. Ndakarega kutyaira kunze kwekutya kuti ndingakuvadza mumwe munhu kana ini uye nhasi, gore rakatevera, handisati ndadzokera pachigaro chemutyairi.

Pakupedzisira, muna Gumiguru, ndakafanira kusangana nachiremba wezveuropi. Akandifambisa kuburikidza neMRI yangu, achindiratidza kuti hippocampus iri kurudyi rwehuropi hwangu yakanga yakaunyana uye idiki kwazvo pane iri kuruboshwe. Akataura kuti mhando iyi yemalformation inogona kukonzera kugwinha - Focal Onset Impaired Awareness Seizures, kuti ive chaiyo.Iko kuongororwa kwese? Tempile Lobe Epilepsy (TLE), iyo inogona kubva kunze kwekunze kana nzvimbo yemukati yeiyo yenguva lobe, sekureva kweEpilepsy Foundation. Sezvo hippocampus iri pakati (yemukati) ye temporal lobe, ini ndanga ndichisangana nekubata kwakasimba kwakakanganisa kuumbwa kwendangariro, kuziva nzvimbo, uye mhinduro dzemanzwiro.

Ini ndinogona kunge ndakazvarwa ndisina kusimba pane hippocampus yangu, asi kurohwa kwakakonzerwa nefivhiri yakakura uye nenyaya dzehutano zvandakanga ndamboita mugore, sekureva kwenyaya yangu. Fivhiri yakakonzera kubatwa sezvo ivo vakapisa icho chikamu chehuropi hwangu, asi kutanga kwekugwinha kwaigona kunge kwakaitika chero nguva, pasina chikonzero kana yambiro. Nzira yakanakisisa yekuita, akadaro, kwaiva kuenda kumishonga yekudzora pfari. Paive nezvakawanda zvekusarudza kubva, asi imwe neimwe yakauya nerunyorwa rurefu rwemhedzisiro, kusanganisira kuremara kwekuberekwa kana ndaizobata nhumbu. Sezvo murume wangu neni taive nezvirongwa zvekutanga mhuri, ndakafunga kuenda naLamotrigine, iyo inonzi ndiyo yakachengeteka. (Zvakabatana: FDA Inobvumira CBD-Yakavakirwa Mushonga Kurapa Kubata)

Zvadaro, chiremba wangu akandiudza kuti vamwe vanhu vane pfari vanogona kufa pasina chikonzero—akangoerekana afa nepfari (SUDEP). Zvinoitika kune vanenge 1 muvanhu vakuru chiuru vane pfari uye zvinokonzeresa njodzi kuvarwere vane chirwere chisingaperi choutano chinotanga kuva munhu mukuru.. Kunyangwe ini ndisina hunyanzvi ndichiwira muboka iri repamusoro rine njodzi, SUDEP ndiyo inokonzeresa kufa kune vanhu vane kudzikama kusingadzoreki, sekureva kweEpilepsy Foundation. Zvinoreva: zvaive (uye zvichiri zvakadaro) zvakanyanya kukosha ini ndinogadzira nzira dzakachengeteka uye dzinoshanda dzekudzora kubatwa kwangu-kubvunza nyanzvi, kutora mishonga, kudzivirira zvinokonzeresa, nezvimwe.

Musi iwoyo, chiremba wangu wetsinga akanditorerawo rezinesi, achiti handaikwanisa kutyaira kusvikira ndabatwa nepfari kwemwedzi inenge mitanhatu. Akandiudzawo kuti ndisaita chero chinhu chaigona kuita kuti nditange kubatwa nepfari, zvinosanganisira kunwa doro zvishoma kana kusatombonwa doro, kusanyanya kunetseka, kurara zvakanyanya, uye kusarega mishonga. Zvimwe pane izvo, chinhu chakanakisa chandingaite kurarama hupenyu hune hutano uye tariro yezvakanakisa. Kana kuri kurovedza muviri? Ikoko hakuna kuita kunge kune chero chikonzero nei ndichifanira kuzvidzivirira, kunyanya sezvo zvaigona kubatsira nemutoro wepamoyo wekubata neangu kuongororwa, akatsanangura. (Yakabatana: Ini Fitness Influencer ine Chiratidzo Chisingaratidzike Chinoita Kuti Ndikure Kurema)

Kurarama Kwandakaita neKuongororwa

Zvakatora mwedzi mitatu kuti ndive akajairwa kune angu ekutora meds. Vakandiita ndaineta zvakanyanya, ndakasvotwa, uye ndine mhute, pamwe nekundipa kusanduka kwemanzwiro — zvese izvi zvinowanzoitika mhedzisiro asi zvinonetsa zvakadaro. Zvakadaro, mukati memavhiki mashoma ekutanga mishonga, vakatanga kushanda. Ndakarega kubatwa nepfari kakawanda, zvichida vhiki shomanana, uye pandakadaro, kwakanga kusina kunyanya. Kunyange nanhasi, ndine mazuva apo ini ndinotanga kugutsurira padhesiki rangu, ndichinetseka kukurudzira uye kunzwa senge ndisiri mumuviri wangu wega-aka an aura (iyo, hongu, iwe unogona zvakare kusangana kana iwe uchitambura ne ocular migraines). Kunyangwe maaura aya asina kusvika pakubatwa nepfari kubva munaKukadzi (🤞🏽), anonyanya "chiratidzo" chekubatwa uye, nekudaro, zvinoita kuti ndizvidye moyo kuti arikuuya - uye zvinogona kunetesa kana uye riini. Ndine 10-15 auras pazuva.

Zvichida chikamu chakaomesesa nezvekuongororwa uye kuchinjika kune yangu nyowani, yekutaura, yaive yekuudza vanhu nezvazvo. Chiremba wangu akatsanangura kuti kutaura nezvekuongororwa kwangu kunogona kusunungura, tisingatauri zvakakosha kune avo vakandipoteredza kana ndikabatwa nepfari uye ndichida rubatsiro. Ndakakurumidza kuona kuti hapana aiziva chero chinhu nezve pfari-uye kuyedza kutsanangura zvaishungurudza, kutaura zvishoma.

"Asi iwe hauratidzike sekurwara," dzimwe shamwari dzakandiudza. Vamwe vakabvunza kana ndakaedza "kufunga kure" kubatwa. Zvirinani, ndakaudzwa kuti ndiwane nyaradzo muchokwadi chekuti "zvirinani ndakanga ndisina chirwere chakaipa chekufa pfari," sekunge paine chero mhando yakanaka.

Ndakaona kuti pese apa pfari yangu payainyangadzwa nekutaura kusingazivikanwe nemazano, ndainzwa kupera simba-uye ndaitambura kuti ndizviparadzanise neangu chirwere.

Zvakatora kushanda nemurapi uye hupengo hwerudo nerutsigiro kwandiri kuti ndione kuti hurwere hwangu hauna uye haufanirwe kunditsanangura. Asi izvi hazvina kuitika neusiku humwe. Saka, pese pandaishaya simba remupfungwa, ndaiedza kuzviitira panyama.

Nekutambudzika kwangu kwese kwehutano kwegore rapfuura, kuenda kugym kwaive kwatora kumashure. Huya Ndira 2020, apo mhute yakakonzerwa nekugwinha kwangu yakatanga kuchena, ndakafunga kutanga kumhanya zvakare. Icho chinhu chakange chandipa kunyaradzwa kwakawanda pandakaonekwa kuti ndine kushushikana ndiri pwere, uye ini ndaitarisira kuti yaizoita zvakafanana izvozvi. Uye fungidzira chii? Izvo zvakaita-mushure mezvose, kumhanya kuri kuputika nepfungwa uye nemuviri mabhenefiti. Kana pane rimwe zuva randakambonetseka nemashoko angu ndikanzwa kunyara, ndakasunga sneakers angu ndokumhanya. Pandaive nezvinotyisa zvehusiku nekuda kwema meds angu, ndainyora mamwe mamaira zuva raitevera. Kumhanya kwakangoita kuti ndinzwe zviri nani: kushomeka kwepfari uye kuwedzera ini, munhu ari kutonga, anokwanisa, uye akasimba.

Sezvo February akatenderera, ndakaitawo kudzidzisa simba chinangwa ndokutanga kushanda nemurairidzi paGRIT Training. Ndakatanga nehurongwa hwemavhiki matanhatu-iyo yaipa matatu maekisesaizi-maitiro ekushanda pavhiki. Icho chinangwa chaive chichienderera mberi nekuwandisa, izvo zvinoreva kuwedzera kuoma kwekudzidzira nekuwedzera vhoriyamu, kusimba, uye kuramba. (Inoenderana: 11 Hutano Hukuru uye Kusimba Mabhenefiti ekusimudza Weights)

Vhiki yoga yoga ndaisimba uye ndaigona kusimudza zvinorema. Pandakatanga, ndakanga ndisati ndamboshandisa bhero muhupenyu hwangu. Ndaigona kuita squats sere pa 95 pounds uye zvishanu zvebhenji pa55 pounds. Mushure memavhiki matanhatu ekudzidziswa, ndakapeta zvakapetwa squat reps uye ndikakwanisa kuita gumi nematanhatu mabhenji pahuremu hwakaenzana. Ndakanzwa ndiine simba uye neizvozvo zvakandipa simba rekutarisana nekukwira nekudzika kwehupenyu hwangu hwezuva nezuva.

Zvandakadzidza

Nhasi, ndave pedyo nemwedzi mina yekubata-isina, zvichindiita mumwe weavo vane rombo rakanaka. Kune vanhu vanosvika mamirioni mana nezviuru vanorarama ne pfari muU.S., sekureva kweCDC, uye kune vazhinji vacho, zvinogona kutora makore kuti vabatwe nepfari. Dzimwe nguva, mishonga haishande, mune izvo zviitiko kuvhiyiwa kwehuropi uye dzimwe nzira dzinokanganisa dzinogona kudikanwa. Kune vamwe, mubatanidzwa wemishonga yakasiyana uye madhiri anodiwa, izvo zvinogona kutora nguva yakareba kuti zvionekwe.

Ndicho chinhu chine pfari—inobata munhu wose. single. munhu. zvakasiyana—uye migumisiro yaro inopfuura nokure kubvutwa chaiko. Zvichienzaniswa nevanhu vakuru vasina chirwere, vanhu vane pfari vane mwero wepamusoro wekutarisira kushomeka kusagadzikana (ADHD) uye kushushikana. Zvino, pane chinyadzo chakabatana nacho.

Kumhanya kwakangoita kuti ndinzwe zvirinani: kushoma kwekubatwa nepfari uye kunyanya ini, mumwe munhu ari kutonga, anokwanisa, uye akasimba.

Ndichiri kudzidza kuti ndisazvitonge kuburikidza nemaziso emumwe munhu. Kurarama nechirwere chisingaoneki kunozviita saka zvakaoma kusadaro. Zvakatora basa rakawanda kwandiri kuti ndirege kurega kusaziva kwevanhu kuchitsanangura manzwiro andinoita nezvangu. Asi ikozvino ndinodada nezvangu uye nekugona kwangu kuita zvinhu, kubva pakumhanya kuenda kutenderera pasirese (pre-coronavirus denda, hongu) nekuti ndinoziva simba rinodiwa kuzviita.

Kune varwi vangu vese vane pfari kunze uko, ndinodada kuve chikamu chenharaunda yakasimba uye inotsigira. Ndinoziva kuti kutaura pamusoro pekuongororwa kwako kwakaoma, asi mune yangu ruzivo, zvinogonawo kusunungura. Kwete izvozvo chete, asi zvinotiunzira nhanho imwe padhuze nekukuvadza pfari uye kuunza kuziva nezvechirwere. Saka, taura chokwadi chako kana uchikwanisa, uye kana zvisiri, ziva kuti hausi wega mumatambudziko ako.

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