Chirwere Chisingawanzoitiki Nekusingaperi chakachinja Hukama Hwangu neKusimba-uye Muviri Wangu

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Dai iwe wakandiona muna 2003, iwe ungadai wafunga kuti ndine zvese. Ndakanga ndiri mudiki, ndakakodzera, uye ndichirarama kurota kwangu semurairidzi aitsvagwa zvakanyanya, murairidzi wekusimba, uye modhi. (Kunakidza chokwadi: Ini ndaitoshanda semuenzaniso wemuviri we Chimiro.) Asi paive nerima divi kuhupenyu hwangu hwemufananidzo - ini kuvengwa muviri wangu. Yangu yepamusoro-yakaenzana yekunze yakavharidzira kusachengeteka kwakadzika, uye ndaishushikana nekurovera chikafu pamberi pese pikicha kupfura. Ndainakidzwa nebasa rokuenzanisira, asi pandakangoona mifananidzo yacho, chandakangoona kwaiva kukanganisa kwangu. Handina kumbobvira ndanzwa kukwana zvakakwana, kubvaruka zvakakwana, kana kuonda zvakakwana. Ndaishandisa maekisesaizi kuzviranga, ndichiita maekisesaizi anorema kunyange pandainzwa ndichirwara kana kuneta. Saka nepo kunze kwangu kwairatidzika kushamisa, mukati maive nemhepo inopisa.

Ndakabva ndamutswa serious.

Ndakanga ndichitambura kurwadziwa nemudumbu uye kupera simba kwemwedzi, asi zvakazosvika murume wemutengi, oncologist, paakaona dumbu rangu richiwedzera (zvaiita kunge ndaive nechitatu boob!) Kuti ndakaona kuti ndaive mudambudziko rakakomba. Akandiudza kuti ndaifanira kuona chiremba nekukurumidza. Mushure mekuurayiwa kwekuyedzwa uye nyanzvi, ini ndakazowana mhinduro yangu: Ini ndaive nerudzi rwusingawanzo rwepancreatic bundu. Yakanga yakakura uye ichikura nekukurumidza zvekuti, pakutanga, vanachiremba vangu vakafunga kuti ndaisazobudirira. Iyi nhau yakandiisa mumuswe wemuswe. Ndakazvitsamwira ini, muviri wangu, nyika. Ndakaita zvese nemazvo! Ndakanyatso chengeta muviri wangu kudai! Zvingandikundika sei zvakadai?

Muna Zvita wegore iroro, ndakavhiyiwa. Vanachiremba vakabvisa zvikamu makumi masere kubva muzana zvepancreas yangu pamwe chete nechikamu chakanaka chetsinga yangu nedumbu. Pashure pacho, ndakasiiwa ndine vanga guru rakaita se“Mercedes-Benz” uye ndisina murayiridzo kana rubatsiro kunze kwokuudzwa kuti ndisasimudze zvinopfuura makirogiramu gumi. Ini ndanga ndabva pakuve ndakakwanira kusvika pakuve ndisina kurarama mune nyaya yemwedzi chete.

Zvinotoshamisa kuti, pachinzvimbo chekunzwa kuora moyo uye kushushikana, ndakanzwa kuchena uye kujeka kwenguva yekutanga mumakore. Zvakaita sekunge bundu rakanga rakaputira kusagadzikana kwangu kwese uye kusahadzika, uye chiremba anovhiya akange acheka zvese izvo kubva mumuviri wangu pamwe nechitunha chakarwara.

Mazuva mashoma mushure mekuvhiyiwa, ndakarara muICU, ndakanyora mumagazini yangu, "ndinofungidzira izvi ndizvo zvinorehwa nevanhu nekuwana mukana wechipiri. kutya, uye kurwadziwa, kubviswa mumuviri wangu mumuviri wangu. Ndiri kunzwa kwakachena. Ndinotenda zvikuru nemukana uyu wekutanga kurarama hupenyu hwangu. " Handigoni kutsanangura chikonzero nei ndakanga ndiine pfungwa yakajeka yokuzviziva ndimene, asi handina kumbova nechokwadi chakadaro pamusoro pechinhu chipi nechipi muupenyu hwangu. Ndakanga ndiri mutsva-mutsva kwandiri. [Zvinoenderana: Kuvhiya Kwakachinja Muviri Wangu Mufananidzo Nokusingaperi]

Kubva musi iwoyo zvichienda mberi, ndakaona muviri wangu mune chiedza chitsva zvachose. Kunyangwe hazvo kupora kwangu raive gore rekurwadziwa kunorwadza-zvairwadza kunyangwe kuita zvinhu zvidiki sekumira wakamira kana kutora dhishi-ndakaita poindi yekukoshesa muviri wangu nezvese zvawaigona kuita. Uye pakupedzisira, kuburikidza nemoyo murefu uye nekushanda nesimba, muviri wangu unogona kuita zvese zvaungagone pamberi pekuvhiyiwa uye kunyangwe zvimwe zvinhu zvitsva. Vanachiremba vakandiudza kuti handichamhanyi zvakare. Asi kwete chete kuti ndinomhanya, ini zvakare ndinosefa, ndoita yoga, uye ndinokwikwidza mumavhiki evhiki emabhasikoro emabhasikoro!

Shanduko dzemuviri dzainakidza, asi shanduko chaiyo yakaitika mukati. Mwedzi mitanhatu pashure pokuvhiyiwa kwangu, chivimbo changu chitsva chakandipa ushingi hwokurambana nomurume wangu ndokusiya ukama ihwohwo hune chepfu zvachose. Zvakandibatsira kudzikisa hushamwari husina kunaka uye kutarisa kune avo vanhu vakandivigira mwenje nekuseka. Yakandibatsirawo mubasa rangu, ichindipa pfungwa yakadzika yekunzwira tsitsi uye tsitsi kune vamwe vanorwisana nehutano hwavo. Kwenguva yekutanga, ndaigona kunyatsonzwisisa kwaibva vatengi vangu, uye ndaiziva kuvamanikidza uye kusavarega vachishandisa matambudziko avo ehutano sechikonzero. Uye zvakachinja zvachose hukama hwangu nekurovedza muviri. Ndisati ndavhiyiwa, ndakaona kurovedza muviri senzira yekuranga kana kungoita sechinhu chekuumba muviri wangu. Mazuva ano, ndinorega muviri wangu unditaurire chii it zvido nezvido. Yoga kwandiri ikozvino yave pamusoro pekutariswa uye kubatana, kwete kuita kaviri Chaturangas kana kusunda kuburikidza neyakaomesesa pose. Maekisesaizi akachinja kubva pakunzwa senge chinhu ini had kuita, kune chimwe chinhu ini kuda kuita uye kunakidzwa zvechokwadi.

Uye vanga rakakura randanga ndave nekunetsekana naro? Ndiri mubikiniki mazuva ese. Iwe unogona kushamisika kuti mumwe munhu aimbova muenzaniso anobata sei nekuva ne "kusakwana" kunooneka, asi kunomiririra nzira dzese dzandakakura uye kuchinja. Chokwadi, handichaoni vanga rangu zvakare. Asi kana ndikautarisa, unondiyeuchidza kuti uyu ndiwo muviri wangu, uye ndiwo wega wandiinawo. Ndiri kungoida. Ini ndapona uye vanga rangu ibheji rangu rerukudzo.

Izvi hazvisi zvechokwadi kwandiri. Tese zvedu tine mavanga-anoonekwa kana asingaonekwe-kubva kuhondo dzatakarwa nekukunda. Usanyara nemavanga ako; Vaone seuchapupu hwesimba rako uye neruzivo. Chengetedza uye remekedza muviri wako: Dikita kazhinji, tamba nesimba, uye rarama hupenyu hwaunoda-nekuti unongowana imwe chete.

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