Overeaters Anonymous Akaponesa Hupenyu Hwangu - Asi Heino Chikonzero Ini Ndichirega

Zvemukati

• Inofungidzirwa nehunhu hwayo, bulimia inogona kuenda isingazivikanwe kwenguva yakareba.
• Ndakabhinya, kurambidza, uye kuchenesa zvikonzero zvimwe chete zvandingave ndakashandukira kudoro kana zvinodhaka - {textend} ivo vakagumburisa pfungwa dzangu uye vakashanda senzira dzekukurumidza asi dzechinguvana dzemarwadzo angu.
• Secrecy ndainzwa kunge shamwari yangu yepedyo, asi muOA, ndanga ndichierekana ndichigovana zviitiko zvangu zvakavanzika kwenguva refu nevamwe vakapona uye ndichiteerera nyaya sedzangu.
• Asi sekugara kwandakaita hupenyu hwakajairika zvakare, zvimwe zvirevo mukati mechirongwa zvakava zvakaoma kugamuchira.
• Ndichagara ndichionga OA uye mutsigiri wangu nekundiburitsa mugomba rerima apo painzwa sekunge pasina nzira yekubuda nayo.

Ndinogona kunyura zvakanyanya muwebhu yehunhu uye kumanikidzwa zvekuti ndaitya kuti ndingazotiza.

Hutano uye hutano zvinobata mumwe nemumwe wedu zvakasiyana. Iyi inyaya yemunhu mumwe.

Ndakaongorora mapekeji ane sugarcoated kuseri kwesupamaketi mushure mekurarama nechikafu chidiki kwevhiki dzinoverengeka. Tsinga dzangu dzakabvunda nekutarisira kuti chirwere che endorphin chaingova mukanwa kure.

Dzimwe nguva, "kuzvidzora" kwaipindira, uye ini ndairamba ndichitenga ndisina kukanganiswa nechishuwo chekudhakwa. Dzimwe nguva, ini ndaisabudirira zvakadaro.

Dambudziko rangu rekudya raive dhanzi rakaomarara pakati penyonganiso, nyadzi, uye kuzvidemba. Kutenderera kusinganzwisisike kwekudya-kwekudya kwakateverwa nemaitiro ekubhadharisa sekutsanya, kuchenesa, kumanikidza kurovedza muviri, uye dzimwe nguva kushandisa zvisirizvo.

Kurwara kwakaenderera mberi nenguva dzakareba dzekurambidzwa kwekudya, iyo yakatanga mumakore angu ekuyaruka uye ikadurikira kusvika makore angu ekupedzisira makumi maviri.

Inofungidzirwa nehunhu hwayo, bulimia inogona kuenda isingazivikanwe kwenguva yakareba.

Vanhu vari kutambura nehurwere kazhinji hava "tarise kurwara," asi chitarisiko chinogona kutsausa. Statistics inotiudza kuti vangangoita 1 muvanhu gumi vanogamuchira kurapwa, nekuzviuraya chiri chikonzero chinowanzoitika cherufu.

Kufanana nevazhinji bulimics, ini handina kutevedzera stereotype yemunhu anorarama nedambudziko rekudya. Kurema kwangu kwakachinjika mukati mehurwere hwangu asi kazhinji kacho kwakange kwakatenderedzwa padanho retsika, saka kurwa kwangu kwanga kusingaonekwe, kunyangwe pandakanga ndichiziya nenzara kwemavhiki panguva.

Chido changu chaisambove chakaonda, asi ndakashuvira zvakanyanya manzwiro ekuti ndiri mukati uye mukutonga.

Dambudziko rangu rekudya raiwanzonzwa rakafanana nekudhakwa. Ndakaviga chikafu mumabag uye muhomwe kuti ndiverere ndichidzokera mumba mangu. Ndakakwenya kuenda kukicheni husiku uye ndikadurura zvaive mukabhodhi rangu uye firiji munzvimbo ine mweya, yakaita kunge trance. Ndakadya kusvika pakurwadza kufema. Ini ndakachenesa zvisingaonekwe mumabathrooms, ndichivhura pombi kuti ndifukidze ruzha.

Mamwe mazuva, zvese zvaitora kwaive kutsauka kudiki kururamisa binge - {textend} chimwe chidimbu chechigunwe, makwere akawandisa echokoreti. Dzimwe nguva, ndaizvironga pamberi apo ini pandakaenda mukubvisa, ndisingakwanise kutsungirira pfungwa yekupfuura rimwe zuva ndisina shuga yakakwira.

Ndakabhinya, kurambidza, uye kuchenesa zvikonzero zvimwe chete zvandingave ndakashandukira kudoro kana zvinodhaka - {textend} ivo vakagumburisa pfungwa dzangu uye vakashanda senzira dzekukurumidza asi dzechinguvana dzemarwadzo angu.

Nokufamba kwenguva, zvakadaro, kumanikidzwa kwekudya zvakanyanya kwakanzwa kusingamiswe. Mushure mega yega kudhakwa, ini ndakarwa ndichishuwira kuzviita ndarwara, nepo kukunda kwandakawana kubva pakudzora kwaive kwakaenzana sekupindwa muropa. Ruregerero uye kuzvidemba kwakava zvakafanana.

Ndakawana Overeaters Anonymous (OA) - {textend} chirongwa chematanho gumi nemaviri chakavhurwa vanhu vane chirwere chepfungwa chine chekuita nechikafu - {textend} mwedzi mishoma ndisati ndasvika panzvimbo yangu yepasi, kazhinji inonzi "dombo pasi" muropa kupora.

Kwandiri, iyo nguva inonetesa yanga ichitsvaga kumusoro "nzira dzisingarwadzire dzekuzviuraya" apo ini ndichifoshorera chikafu mumuromo mangu mushure memazuva akati wandei-enzira yekuzvinyudza.

Ndinogona kunyura zvakanyanya muwebhu yehunhu uye kumanikidzwa zvekuti ndaitya kuti ndingazotiza.

Mushure maizvozvo, ndakaenda kubva pakupinda misangano pano neapo kana kana kana kashanu pavhiki, dzimwe nguva kufamba kwemaawa akawanda pazuva kuenda kumakona akasiyana eLondon. Ndakagara ndikafema OA kweanoda kuita makore maviri.

Misangano yakandiunza kunze kwekusurukirwa. Sevane bulimic, ini ndaivapo mune mbiri nyika: nyika yekunyepedzera kwandaive ndakanyatsoiswa pamwe nekubudirira zvakanyanya, uye imwe yaisanganisira maitiro angu akashata, uko kwandainzwa kunge ndaigara ndichinyura.

Secrecy ndainzwa kunge shamwari yangu yepedyo, asi muOA, ndanga ndichierekana ndichigovana zviitiko zvangu zvakavanzika kwenguva refu nevamwe vakapona uye ndichiteerera nyaya sedzangu.

Kwenguva yekutanga mushure menguva refu, ndakanzwa pfungwa yekubatana iyo hosha yangu yainge yanditorera kwemakore. Pamusangano wangu wechipiri, ndakasangana newakanditsigira - {textend} mukadzi munyoro ane moyo murefu sewaitsvene - {textend} uyo akazova chipangamazano wangu uye sosi yekutanga yerutsigiro uye nhungamiro pakunaya kwese.

Ndakagamuchira zvikamu zvepurogiramu zvakatanga kukonzera kuramba, chinonetsa zvikuru kuzviisa pasi pe "simba rakakwirira." Ndakanga ndisina chokwadi nezvandaitenda kana kuti ndichizvitsanangura sei, asi zvaive zvisina basa. Ndaipfugama zuva nezuva uye ndaikumbira rubatsiro. Ndakanamata kuti ndikwanise kuzvibvisira ndimene mutoro wandakatakura kwenguva yakareba.

Kwandiri, chakave mucherechedzo wekubvuma kuti handikwanise kukunda chirwere ndoga, uye ndaive ndichida kuita chero chaitora kuti ndive nani.

Kuzvidzivirira - {textend} chirevo chakakosha cheOA - {textend} chakandipa iyo nzvimbo yekurangarira zvainge zvakaita kupindura kune nzara uye kudya usina kunzwa mhosva zvakare. Ini ndaitevedzera chirongwa chisingachinjiki chekudya katatu pazuva. Ndakadzivisa kubva kune zvinodhaka-semafambiro, uye ndikacheka kudya-kunokonzera kudya. Mazuva ese pasina kumanikidza, kudhakwa, kana kupukuta kamwe kamwe akanzwa sechishamiso.

Asi sekugara kwandakaita hupenyu hwakajairika zvakare, zvimwe zvirevo mukati mechirongwa zvakava zvakaoma kugamuchira.

Kunyanya, kumisikidzwa kwechikafu chakasarudzika, uye iyo pfungwa yekurega zvachose ndiyo yega nzira yekusununguka pakudya zvisina kukodzera.

Ndakanzwa vanhu vanga vachipora kwemakumi emakore vachiri kuzviti ivo vakapindwa muropa. Ndainzwisisa kusada kwavo kupokana nehungwaru hwakaponesa hupenyu hwavo, asi ndakabvunza kana zvainge zvichibatsira uye kutendeseka kwandiri kuti ndirambe ndichivakira zvisarudzo zvangu pane zvaiita sekutya - {textend} kutya kudzokazve, kutya kusazivikanwa.

Ndakaona kuti kutonga kwaive pamoyo pekudzoka kwangu, sezvazvaimboita kutonga kusagadzikana kwangu kwekudya.

Kusagadzikana kumwe chete kwakandibatsira kuti ndive nehukama hwakanaka nechikafu kwave kudzvinyirira, uye zvakanyanya kusagadzikana, zvakanzwa zvisingaenderane nemararamiro akaenzana andaizvifungira.

Wangu mutsigiri akandiyambira nezve chirwere ichi chinopinda mukati pasina kuomerera pachirongwa, asi ini ndakavimba kuti moderation yaive sarudzo inoshanda kwandiri uye kuti kupora zvizere kwaigona.

Saka, ndakafunga kusiya OA. Zvishoma nezvishoma ndakarega kuenda kumisangano. Ndakatanga kudya "zvakarambidzwa" chikafu mune zvishoma zvishoma. Ini ndakanga ndisisatevedzeri gwara rakarongedzwa pakudya. Nyika yangu haina kupunzika pakandikomberedza uye handina kudzokerazve munzira dzisina kushanda, asi ini ndakatanga kutora maturusi matsva nemaitiro ekutsigira nzira yangu nyowani yekudzoka.

Ndichagara ndichionga OA uye mutsigiri wangu nekundiburitsa mugomba rerima apo painzwa sekunge pasina nzira yekubuda nayo.

Nzira yevatema nechena pasina mubvunzo ine masimba ayo. Zvinogona kuve zvinonyanya kubatsira kudzora hunhu hwekuzvibata, uye zvakandibatsira kubvisa mamwe maitiro ane njodzi uye akadzika midzi, sekudhakwa uye kuchenesa.

Kuzvidzivirira uye kuronga kwegadziriro zvinogona kuve chikamu chinobatsira pakuzorora kwenguva refu kune vamwe, zvichivagonesa kuchengeta musoro wavo pamusoro pemvura. Asi rwendo rwangu rwakandidzidzisa kuti kupora inzira yega inotaridzika uye inoshanda zvakasiyana kune wese munhu, uye inogona kushanduka pamatanho akasiyana muhupenyu hwedu.

Nhasi, ndinoramba ndichidya zvine pfungwa.Ndinoedza kuramba ndichifunga nezvezvinangwa zvangu uye zvinokurudzira, uye kupokana nezvose-kana-zvisina-kufunga izvo zvakandichengeta ndakabatwa mukutenderera kunoshamisa kwekuora mwoyo kwenguva refu.

Zvimwe zvezvikamu zve12-nhanho zvichiri kuoneka muhupenyu hwangu, kusanganisira kufungisisa, munamato, uye kurarama "zuva rimwe chete panguva." Ini ikozvino ndasarudza kugadzirisa marwadzo angu zvakananga kuburikidza nekurapa uye kuzvitarisira, ndichiziva kuti chishuwo chekudzivirira kana kubhawa chiratidzo chekuti chimwe chinhu hachina kugadzikana pamoyo.

Ini ndanzwa seakawanda "ebudiriro nyaya" nezve OA sezvandakanzwa zvisina kunaka, zvakadaro, chirongwa ichi chinogashira chakaringana chekushoropodzwa nekuda kwemibvunzo yakatenderedza kushanda kwayo.

OA, kwandiri, yakashanda nekuti yakandibatsira kuti ndigamuchire rutsigiro kubva kune vamwe panguva yandaida zvakanyanya, kutamba chinzvimbo chakakosha mukukunda chirwere chinotyisa.

Zvakadaro, kufamba uchienda nekumbundikira kusanzwisisika rave danho rine simba murwendo rwangu rwekupora. Ndadzidza kuti dzimwe nguva zvakakosha kuti uzvivimbe mukutanga chitsauko chitsva, pane kumanikidzwa kunamatira kune rondedzero isingashande zvakanyanya.

Ziba munyori uye muongorori anobva kuLondon ane ruzivo rwefilosofi, psychology, uye hutano hwepfungwa. Iye ane shungu dzekubvisa runyararo rwakakomberedza chirwere chepfungwa uye kuita kuti kutsvagurudza kwepfungwa kuve nyore kuruzhinji. Dzimwe nguva, anovheneka semwedzi semuimbi. Tsvaga zvimwe kuburikidza newebhusaiti yake uye mutevere pa Twitter.