Kumhanya Pamwoyo: Kumhanya Kwakandiporesa

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Ramba uchingosunda, ndakagunun’una ndimene sezvandainyahwaira ndakananga kuchiratidzo chemamaira 12 cheRunner’s World Heartbreak Hill Half muNewton, Massachusetts, yakatumidzwa nokuda kwomukwidza wakashata zvikurusa weBoston Marathon. Ndakanga ndasvika pamateru muchikamu chekupedzisira chehafu-marathon yakaitirwa chinangwa chimwe chete: kukunda Heartbreak Hill.

Inguva pfupi vamhanyi vanorota nezvangu-ini ndakabatanidzwa. Ini ndaifungidzira nechivimbo kupinza kukotama, mapapu angu achipururudzira murwiyo kumatanho angu sezvo ini pakupedzisira ndakatyora maawa maviri. Asi iyo yaifanirwa kunge inokurumidza hafu-marathon yangu yakakurumidza kuva yangu inononoka. Zuva risina makore, 80-degree zuva rakandimanikidza kudzora nhanho dzangu. Uye saka ndakauya ndakatarisana-neakakurumbira Heartbreak Chikomo, ndakaninipiswa uye ndikakundwa.

Ndichinosvika pedyo nekwakanga kwakaita kutaramuka, mwoyo wakanga wakandikomba. Chiratidzo chairatidza kutanga kwayo: Kushungurudzika. Mumwe murume akapfeka sutu yegorilla akapfeka T-shati yakanyorwa kuti: Kushungurudzika. Vataridzi vakashevedzera kuti: "Chikomo chinoshungurudza moyo kumusoro kumberi!"

Kamwe kamwe, yakanga isati ichingova chipingamupinyi chomuviri. Pasina nguva, marwadzo makuru ehupenyu hwangu pachangu akandiwira. Ndakaneta, kupera simba, uye kutarisa pasi kukundikana, handina kukwanisa kuzunza zviitiko zvandinosangana neshoko iro: kukura nababa vanoshusha, chidhakwa vakazvinwa kusvika pakufa ini ndaive nemakore makumi maviri nemashanu, ndichirwisa tibial pfupa bundu rakandisiya ndichifamba ndakaremara uye ndisingakwanise kumhanya kweanopfuura makore gumi, ndichivhiyiwa ovarian pazera regumi nematanhatu, kumwedzi kuenda kumwedzi pamakore makumi maviri, uye kurarama nehutachiona izvo zvaireva kuti ndingangodaro ndisina kumboita vana. Kurwadziwa kwangu chaiko kwaiita kunge kusingagumi sekukwira kwakashata uko.

Pahuro pangu pakasunga. Ndakatadza kufema apa ndakadzipwa nemisodzi. Ndakanonoka kufamba, ndichifemereka ndichirova chipfuva changu nechanza changu. Nenhanho yega yega kukwira paChikomo chePamoyo, ndakanzwa chimwe nechimwe chezviitiko zvacho chichivhurika zvekare, zvichirwadzisa kurwadziwa kwavo zvakare pamweya wangu mutsvuku, unorova. Masiketi akasunga moyo wangu wakaputsika akatanga kukamukana. Sezvo kushushikana pamoyo uye nemanzwiro zvakandibata, ndakafunga zvekurega, ndakagara pamharadzano, musoro mumaoko uye chipfuva kusimudza-senge nyika-rekodhi mubati Paula Radcliffe akaita paakabuda mumakwikwi e2004 Olimpiki.

Asi kunyangwe shungu dzekusiya dzainge dzakura, chimwe chinhu chakandiendesa mberi, chichindisundidzira kuChikomo cheHeartbreak.

Ndakasvika pamutambo wekumhanya ndisingade-ungatoti kukava nekuridza mhere. Kubva pamakore gumi nemana, kumhanya kwaive the chinhu chinorwadza kupfuura zvese chandingaite, nekuda kweiyo bundu repfupa. Anopfuura makore gumi gare gare uye isingasviki mwedzi miviri pashure porufu rwababa vangu, pakupedzisira ndakaenda kunovhiyiwa. Zvino, zvese kamwechete, murume uye chipingamupinyi chakambonditsanangura vakaenda.

Sekuraira kwachiremba, ndakatanga kumhanya. Kuvenga kwangu kwakapfeka kwemutambo kwakakurumidza kuita chimwe chinhu: mufaro. Nhanho nenhanho, mamaira nemamaira, ndakaona kuti ini anodiwa kumhanya. Ndakanzwa kusununguka-rusununguko rwekuti zvese bundu uye kugara pasi pemumvuri wababa vangu zvakandiramba.

Makumi gumi gare gare, ndamhanya makumi maviri hafu-marathoni, manomwe marathoni, uye ndakavaka basa kutenderedza chiitiko chandaimbozeza. Mukuita kudaro, mutambo wakava mushonga wangu uye nyaradzo yangu. Kudzidzira kwandakaita zuva nezuva kwaive nzira yekusuwa, kutsamwa, uye kushungurudzika kwakatambudza hukama hwangu nababa vangu. Kudzidziswa kwakandipa iyo nguva yekushanda kuburikidza nemanzwiro angu kana iye aenda. Ndakatanga kupora-30, 45, uye 60 maminetsi panguva.

Marathon yangu yechitatu yakaratidza kumhanya kwandiitira. Mujaho weChicago Marathon wa2009 wakaitika pazuva rechitanhatu rekufa kwababa vangu, muguta rehudiki hwangu. Ndakapedza kupera kwevhiki kwehudiki kubasa nababa vangu, uye kosi yemarathon inopfuura hofisi yavo yekare. Ndakapira mujaho kwaari, uye ndakamhanya zvangu zvakanakisisa. Pandakada kukanda mapfumo pasi ndakamufunga. Ndakaona kuti ndakanga ndisisatsamwe futi, hasha dzangu dzakanyungudika mudenga nedikita rangu.

Panguva iyoyo paBoston's Heartbreak Hill, ndakafunga nezvekufamba kwemuviri kwekuisa tsoka imwe pamberi peimwe, kuti zvakandibata sei mumakore gumi apfuura ehupenyu hwangu. Mberi mberi kukwira kwakave chiratidzo uye chaicho kuratidzwa kwemanzwiro andakaita.

Uye saka ndakafamba ndichikwira mukwidza ndichiziva kuti ndaizowana hafu yemaawa maviri hafu-marathon rimwe zuva, kana zvisiri nhasi, ndichiziva kuti kurwadziwa kwemoyo kwega kwega kunozopfuura nemufaro mukuru. Ndakadzikamisa mweya wangu ndokurega misodzi yangu ichinyungudika mukati mekuvhara zuva, munyu, uye ziya richiputira kumeso kwangu.

Pedyo nepamusoro pegomo, mumwe mukadzi akamhanya achiuya kwandiri."Huyai," akadaro asinganetse nekusimudzira ruoko rwake. "Tave kutosvika," akadaro achindiburutsa munzeve dzangu.

Ramba uchingosunda, Ndaifunga. Ndakatanga kumhanya zvekare.

"Thank you," ndakadaro ndichibva ndaswedera padivi pake. "Ndanga ndichida izvozvo." Takamhanya mazana ekupedzisira mayadhi pamwe chete, nhanho yekukwira kumutsetse wekupedzisira.

Ndiine Heartbreak Hill kumashure kwangu, ndakaona kuti matambudziko ehupenyu hwangu haanditsanangure. Asi zvandakaita navo zvinoita. Ndingadai ndakagara pasi kudivi rekosi iya. Ndingadai ndakasimudzira mumhanyi iyeye kure. Asi ini handina. Ndakazvidhonza ndokuramba ndichipusha, ndichienda kumberi, mukumhanya uye muhupenyu.

Karla Bruning munyori / mutori wenhau uyo ​​blog pamusoro pezvinhu zvese zvinomhanya paRunKarlaRun.com.

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