Muviri Wangu Unogona Kugara Wakakora, asi Iwo Haugare Wakamira

Kwete zvese zvinoitwa nemuviri wemafuta ndezvekudzikira uremu.

Maitiro atinoona maumbirwo epasi rose atinosarudza kuva - {textend} uye kugovana zviitiko zvinomanikidza zvinogona kuumba nzira yatinoitirana nayo, kuti ive nani. Aya maonero akasimba.

Ini ndaive nemakore matatu ekuberekwa pandakatanga kushambira. Ndakanga ndine makore 14 pandakamira.

Ini handirangarire kekutanga pandakapinda mudziva, asi ndinorangarira kunzwa kwekutsvedza pazasi peyekutanga, maoko achicheka nemvura, makumbo akasimba uye akatwasuka achindifambisa kuenda kumberi.

Ndainzwa ndine simba, ndakamanikidzwa, ndakadzikama uye ndichifungisisa, zvese panguva imwe chete. Chero kunetsekana kwandaive nako kwaive kuratidzwa kwemhepo nenyika - {textend} vakatadza kusvika pandiri pasi pemvura.

Pane imwe nguva pandakatanga kushambira, handina kukwanisa kumira. Ndakabatana nechikwata chevechidiki chekushambira padziva remunharaunda, ndikazove murairidzi. Ini ndakashambira ndakadzosera mukati inosangana, ndichinamira timu neine simba butterfly. Handina kumbonzwa ndakasimba kana kuva nesimba kudarika pandakashambira. Saka ndakashambira mukana wese wandakawana.

Paingova nedambudziko rimwe chete. Ndakanga ndakakora.

Ini handina kusangana neyakajairika mamiriro ekudheerera, vandaidzidza navo vachiimba nziyo dzinoimbwa kana kuseka pachena muviri wangu. Hapana akataura nezve saizi yangu padziva.

Asi apo ini ndanga ndisiri kucheka kuburikidza inopinza, ichiri mvura, ini ndaive ndakamhanyisa mugungwa rekutaura kwekudya, kurerutsa uremu, uye vezera avo vakangoerekana vazvibvunza kana vaive vakafuta zvakanyanya kuti vabvise rokwe riya kana kuti zvidya zvavo zvaizo nokusingaperi ita mutete.

Kunyangwe sutu dzekushambira dzakandiyeuchidza kuti muviri wangu waisaonekwa.

Ini ndaive musikana wechidiki, uye kutaura kwekudya kwaive kwese kwese. Kana ndikasarasa mapaundi mashanu anotevera, handisi kuzobuda mumba. Haazombondibvunza kuti ndigodzokera kumba - {textend} Ini ndakanyanya kufuta. Handikwanise kupfeka mbichana mbichana. Hapana anoda kuona zvidya izvi.

Ndakateerera pavaitaura, kumeso kwangu kwakatsvuka. Wese munhu, zvaitaridzika, vakawana yavo miviri kunge yakakora zvisingaite. Uye ini ndaive ndakakora kudarika vese.

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Nekufamba kwenguva, pandakapinda pakati nepakati kusekondari, ndakave nekuziva zvakanyanya kuti kuona kwemuviri wangu kwaive kusingagamuchirwe kune avo vakandikomberedza - {textend} kunyanya mune yekushambira. Uye kana muviri wangu ukasaonekwa, hapana mubvunzo kuti waisakwanisa kufambiswa.

Saka ndakarega kushambira nguva dzose.

Handina kucherechedza kurasikirwa kwacho nekukasira. Tsandanyama dzangu dzakadzikira zvishoma nezvishoma, dzichitsvedza kubva kugadziriro yavo yekutanga yekudaira. Kufema kwangu kwekuzorora hakuna kupera uye kwakamutswa. Pfungwa yapfuura yekudzikama yakatsiviwa neyakajairika kumhanya pamoyo uye kunonoka kudzipwa kwekugara uchizvidya mwoyo.

Kunyangwe ndiri mukukura, ndakapedza makore ndiri kure nemadziva nemahombekombe, ndichinyatsoongorora nzvimbo dzemvura ndisati ndadzipa nemuviri wangu wakashata. Sokunge mumwe munhu, kumwe kunhu, aigona kuvimbisa kuti rwendo rwangu rwaizove rusina kuseka kana kutarisa. Senge kana imwe ngirozi yakakora inochengetedza yaive yafanoona kushushikana kwangu kwechokwadi. Ivo havazoseka, ini ndinovimbisa. Ini ndaishuvira kuchengetedzeka nyika yairamba kupa.

Ini ndisingazeze ndakatarisa pamusoro peye chete swimsuits muhukuru hwangu: matronly swim madhirezi uye bhegi "shortinis," magadzirirwo anodonhedza mukunyara, akaiswa kune akakura kukura. Kunyangwe sutu dzekushambira dzakandiyeuchidza kuti muviri wangu waisaonekwa.

Muviri wangu unoramba wakakora, sezvakangoita pandakashambira kwemaawa zuva rega rega. Muviri wangu unoramba wakakora, sezvawakagara wakaita. Muviri wangu ucharamba wakakora, asi hauzorambi wakamira.

Pandaiita mahombekombe akashinga nemadziva, ndaisangana zvakavimbika nekutarisisa, dzimwe nguva kuperekedzana nekazevezeve, kuseka, kana kunongedzera pachena. Kusiyana nevandaidzidza navo kuchikoro chesekondari, vanhu vakuru vakaratidza kuzvidzora kushoma. Ndedzipi pfungwa diki yekuchengeteka yandakanga ndasiya neyakafadza yavo, yakatarisana yakatarisana.

Saka ndakarega kushambira zvachose.

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Makore maviri apfuura, mushure memakore kure nemadziva nemahombekombe, iyo fatkini yakaita kutanga kwayo.

Pakarepo, vatengesi vemawoko-makuru vakatanga kugadzira mbichana-mbichana mbichana: mabhikini nechidimbu chimwe, kushambira masiketi uye varindi vane rash. Iwo musika wakakurumidza kuzara mune itsva swimsuits.

Instagram neFacebook zvaive zvizere nemifananidzo yevamwe vakadzi saizi yangu vakapfeka masutu e racerback uye zvidimbu zviviri, zvine rudo zvinonzi "fatkinis." Vaipfeka chero gehena ravainzwa kuda kupfeka.

Ndakatenga fatkini yangu yekutanga nekutya. Ndakairaira online, ndichiviga, ndichinyatsoziva kuti zevezeve nekutonga kwakazaruka kwaizonditevera kubva kudziva kusvika kumashopu. Sutu yangu payakasvika, ndakamirira mazuva ndisati ndaiyedza. Ini ndakazoipfeka husiku, ndega mumba mangu, kure nemahwindo, sekunge maziso ekutsvinya aigona kunditevera kunyangwe munzira yangu yekugara yakarara.

Pandakangopfeka, ndakanzwa chimiro changu kuchinja, mapfupa akasimba uye mhasuru dzakasimbiswa. Ndakanzwa hupenyu kuchidzoka mutsinga dzangu nemumatsinga, ndichirangarira chinangwa chazvo.

Kunzwa kwacho kwakangoerekana kwaitika uye kwakapfuura. Pakarepo, zvisinganzwisisike, ndakave nesimba zvakare.

Handina kumboda kutora bhati yangu yekugezesa. Ndakarara pamubhedha mufatkini yangu. Ndakachenesa imba mufatkini yangu. Ndakanga ndisati ndambonzwa simba rakadai. Ini handina kukwanisa kuzvibvisa, uye handina kana kumboda.

Mwaka uno wezhizha, ndichashambira zvakare.

Isati iri nguva refu pashure paikoko, ndakatanga kushambira zvakare. Ndakashambira parwendo rwebasa, ndichisarudza kushambira kwevhiki pakati pehusiku, apo dziva repahotera raigona kunge risina chinhu. Kufema kwangu kwaikurumidza uye kupfupi pandakabuda mukongiri, ndichinonoka zvishoma pandakaona kuti dziva rakanga risina chinhu.

Kupinda mudziva kwanga kwakaita sekudzokera zvakare muganda rangu. Ndakanzwa makungwa eropa achipomba nemumoyo mangu, hupenyu hwuchimerera mune yega yega yemuviri wangu. Ndakashambira pamakumbo, ndichiyeuchidza muviri wangu mutinhimira weflip kutendeuka waimboziva kwazvo.

Ndakashambira butterfly uye freestyle uye breaststroke. Ndakashambira ndichifamba kwenguva, ndobva ndango kushambira, kurega muviri wangu uchisunda pakurwisa zvinyoro-nyoro zvemvura. Ndinorega muviri wangu undiyeuchidze nezvemufaro wekufamba kwawo. Ndinozvibvumira kuti ndirangarire simba remuviri wandakanga ndaviga kwenguva yakareba.

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Mwaka uno wezhizha, ndichashambira zvakare. Zvekare, ndichaita simbi yemweya pachangu yekucheka mhinduro kune chimiro cheganda rangu. Ini ndinodzidzira kudzoka nekukurumidza kudzivirira kodzero yangu yekugara munzvimbo yandagara ndichinzwa zvakanyanya pamba.

Muviri wangu unoramba wakakora, sezvakangoita pandakashambira kwemaawa zuva rega rega. Muviri wangu unoramba wakakora, sezvawakagara wakaita. Muviri wangu ucharamba wakakora, asi hauzorambi wakamira.

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