Kurega Kwangu Mazamu Anodyara Mushure meKaviri Mastectomy Pakupedzisira Zvakandibatsira Kudzosera Muviri Wangu

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Kekutanga nguva yandinorangarira kunzwa ndakasununguka ndipo pandakanga ndichidzidza kunze kwenyika muItari mukati megore rangu junior rekoreji. Kuve kune imwe nyika uye kunze kweyakajairwa mutinhimira wehupenyu kwakandibatsira chaizvo kubatana neni uye kunzwisisa zvakawanda nezvekuti ndaive ani uye ndaida kuve ani. Pandakadzokera kumba, ndainzwa senge ndaiva munzvimbo huru uye ndaifarira kuchovha chakakwirira chandainzwa mugore rangu repamusoro rekoreji.

Mumavhiki akatevera, makirasi asati atanga kudzoka zvakare, ndakaenda kunoongororwa nachiremba wangu uko akawana bundu pahuro pangu ndokundikumbira kuti ndiende kunoona chiremba. Kusafunga zvakawanda nezvazvo, ndakadzokera kukoreji asi nguva pfupi yapfuura, ndakafonerwa naamai vangu vachindizivisa kuti ndaiva negomarara rethyroid. Ndakanga ndiri 21-makore-okuberekwa.

Mumaawa 24 upenyu hwangu hwakachinja. Ndakaenda kubva pakuve ndiri munzvimbo yekuwedzera, kukura, uye kuuya kwangu ndega kuve kudzokera kumba, kunovhiyiwa uye kunyatsovimba nemhuri yangu zvakare.Ini ndaifanirwa kutora semester yese kubva, ndichitora radiation uye ndopedza nguva yakawanda ndiri muchipatara, ndichiva nechokwadi chekuti mabiomarkers anga ari mukutarisa. (Yakabatana: Ndiri Wechina-Nguva Kenza Kupukunyuka uye USA Track & Munda Mutambi)

Muna 1997, kwapera gore, ndakanga ndisisina kenza. Kubva panguva iyoyo kusvika ndave pakati pemakore makumi maviri, hupenyu hwaive hwakanaka panguva imwe chete uye zvakare nerima zvakanyanyisa. Kune rumwe rutivi, ndaive nemikana yose iyi inoshamisa inowira munzvimbo-pashure pokunge ndapedza kudzidza, ndakawana internship muItaly uye ndakaguma ndichigara ikoko kwemakore maviri nehafu. Mushure mezvo, ndakadzokera kuUnited States ndikanotora basa rangu reroto mukushambadzira kwefashoni ndisati ndazopedzisira ndadzokera kuItari kunotora degree rangu rekupedza kudzidza.

Zvese zvaitaridzika zvakakwana pabepa. Asi usiku, ndairara ndakasvinura ndichivhunduka, kuora mwoyo kwakanyanya, uye kuzvidya mwoyo. Ndaisagona kugara mukirasi kana kuti bhaisikopo pasina kuva pedyo nomusuo. Ndaifanira kurapwa zvakanyanya ndisati ndakwira ndege. Uye ndakanga ndiine iyi manzwiro enguva dzose ekuparadzwa akanditevera kumativi ose kwandaienda.

Ndichitarira shure, pandakaonekwa kuti ndine kenza, ndakaudzwa kuti 'Oh waita rombo rakanaka' nokuti yakanga isiri rudzi rwekenza "yakaipa". Wese munhu aingoda kuti ndinzwe zvirinani saka paive nekuwanda kwetarisiro iyi asi handina kumbozvirega ndichichema nekugadzirisa marwadzo nekushungurudzika kwandaive nako, zvisinei nekuti ndaive ne "rombo rakanaka" sei.

Mushure memakore mashoma apfuura, ndakafunga kunoongororwa ropa ndikaona kuti ndaive mutakuri wechibereko cheBCRA1, izvo zvakaita kuti ndibatwe nekenza yemazamu mune ramangwana. Pfungwa yekugara muhusungwa nehutano hwangu kuna Mwari vanoziva kusvika rinhi, ndisingazive kana uye riini ndaizonzwa nhau dzakaipa, yaive nzira yakawandisa kwandiri kuti ndibate yakapihwa hutano hwangu hwepfungwa uye nhoroondo neshoko reC. Nekudaro, muna2008, makore mana mushure mekuziva nezve BCRA geni, ndakafunga kusarudza yekuzvidzivirira kaviri mastectomy. (Inoenderana: Chii Chaicho Chinoshanda Kuderedza Hupenyu Hwako hweCancer Cancer)

Ndakaenda mukuvhiyiwa ikoko ndiine simba rakanyanya uye zvakajeka nezvesarudzo yangu asi ndakanga ndisina chokwadi chekuti ndaizoitwazve mazamu. Chikamu changu chaida kubuda mazviri zvizere, asi ini ndakabvunza nezve kushandisa zvangu mafuta uye nyama, asi vanachiremba vakati handina zvakakwana kushandisa nzira iyoyo. Saka ndakawana silicon yakavakirwa mazamu maimplants ndikafunga kuti ndaizokwanisa kuenderera mberi nehupenyu hwangu.

Hazvina kunditorera nguva kuti ndione kuti zvaive zvisiri nyore.

Handina kumbonzwa ndiri pamba mumuviri wangu mushure mekuwana maimplant. Vakanga vasina kugadzikana uye vakaita kuti ndinzwe ndabviswa kubva pachikamu ichocho chemuviri wangu. Asi kusiyana nenguva yandakatanga kuongororwa kukoreji, ini ndanga ndakagadzirira kuchinja zvizere hupenyu hwangu. Ini ndanga ndatanga kuenda zvakavanzika zvega yoga makirasi mushure mekunge iye zvino murume wangu wekare anditorera pasuru yezuva rangu rekuzvarwa. Hukama hwandakavaka kuburikidza nahwo hwakandidzidzisa zvakawanda pamusoro pekukosha kwekudya zvakanaka uye kufungisisa, izvo zvakazondipa simba rekuenda kurapa kekutanga nechido chekuburitsa manzwiro angu uye kubvarura ese akavhurika. (Zvakabatana: 17 Mabhenefiti Ane Simba Ekufungisisa)

Asi pandakanga ndichishanda nesimba pandiri mupfungwa nemumoyo, muviri wangu wanga uchiri kuita zvemuviri uye handina kumbonzwa zana muzana. Muna 2016 ndipo pandakazobata zororo randakanga ndaritsvaga ndisingazive.

Shamwari yangu inodikanwa yakauya kumba kwangu nguva pfupi yapfuura yegore Idzva ndokunditambidza boka remapepa. Akati aizobviswa mazamu ake nekuti ainzwa kuti ari kurwarisa. Kunyangwe iye aisada kundiudza zvekuita, akandiudza kuti ndiverenge pane ruzivo rwese, nekuti paive nemukana wekuti zvinhu zvakawanda zvandakanga ndichiri kubata nazvo panyama, zvaigona kuve zvakabatana nezvangu zvinoiswa.

Muchokwadi, wechipiri ini ndakamunzwa achiti ini ndakafunga kuti 'ndinofanira kubvisa zvinhu izvi.' Saka ndakafonera chiremba wangu zuva raitevera uye mukati memavhiki matatu ndakabvisirwa mbichana. Wechipiri ini ndakamuka kubva pakuvhiyiwa, ndakanzwa zvirinani nekukasira uye ndikaziva kuti ndakaita sarudzo chaiyo.

Nguva iyoyo ndiyo yakanyatsondisundidzira munzvimbo yandakakwanisa kudzoreredza muviri wangu wanga usati wanyatsonzwa sewangu kubva mushure mekuongororwa kwandakaita negomarara rethyroid. (Yakabatana: Uyu Mukadzi Anopa Simba Anobheura Mastectomy Scars muEquinox's New Ad Campaign)

Izvo chaizvo zvakandikanganisa zvekuti ndakafunga kugadzira inoenderera mberi multimedia documentary inonzi Last Cut nerubatsiro rweshamwari yangu Lisa Field. Kubudikidza nenhevedzano yemapikicha, mablog mablog uye mapodcast, ini ndaida kugovana rwendo rwangu nenyika ndichikurudzira vanhu kuita zvakafanana.

Ndakanzwa kuti kuziva kwandaive nako pandakafunga kubvisa mbichana mbichana kwaive kudimikira kukuru kune zvatiri zvese kuita zvese nguva. Isu tese tiri kugara tichifungisisa pane zviri mukati medu zvisingaenderane zvatiri chaizvo. Tose tiri kuzvibvunza isu: Ndeapi matanho kana sarudzo kana yekupedzisira kucheka, sekuda kwandinoita kuvadaidza, isu tinofanirwa here kutora kuenda kune hupenyu hwunonzwa kunge hwedu?

Saka ini ndakatora yese iyi mibvunzo iyo yandaive ndichizvibvunza ndega ndikagovana nyaya yangu uye ndokusvitsawo kune vamwe vanhu vakararama hupenyu hwakashinga uye hwakashinga uye vakagovana chii yekupedzisirakucheka vakatofanira kugadzira kuti vasvike pavari nhasi.

Ndinovimba kuti kugovera nyaya idzi kuchabatsira vamwe kuti vaone kuti havasi vega, kuti munhu wese anopinda nemumatambudziko, kunyangwe akakura sei kana madiki, kuti awane mufaro pakupedzisira.

Pakupera kwezuva, kuwira murudo newe kutanga kunoita zvimwe zvese muhupenyu, kwete hazvo kuve nyore, asi zvakanyanya kujekesa. Uye kupa izwi kune zvauri kusangana nazvo nenzira isina njodzi uye yakasvibira inzira yakadzama yekugadzira hukama newe uye pakupedzisira kukwezva vanhu vanopa kukosha kuhupenyu hwako. Kana ndikakwanisa kubatsira kunyangwe munhu mumwe chete kuti asvike pakuziva izvi nekukurumidza kupfuura zvandakaita, ndapedza zvandakazvarirwa kuti ndiite. Uye hapana kunzwa kuri nani kupfuura izvozvo.

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