Ndakaedza Kufungisisa Kweboka ... uye ndakave nekutya kwekutya

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Kana iwe wakambofungisisa zvisati zvaitika-OK, ngative tiri vechokwadi, kana iwe wakatozvigona kufunga nezve kuyedza kufungisisa-iwe unoziva iri nzira yakanyanya kuoma kugara uye kuita zvachose chinhu kupfuura zvazviri zvinonzwika. Kwandiri, kufungisisa kwakafanana nekurovedza muviri: Kana ndisina nguva nenzvimbo yekurovedza muviri yangu yakanyorwa mukarenda yangu, handisi kuenda. Asi zvisinei neruzivo rwangu rwe sei kuzviita, ndinoziva mabhenefiti ane simba ekufungisisa (tsvagiridzo inoratidza kuti zvirinani zororo rekurwadziwa kupfuura morphine, rinogona kukubatsira kurova kumbomira pakukwegura, uye kuti vanhu vanoita kufunga vangangove nemafuta mashoma emudumbu), uye vasingafunge kutora mukana iwoyo.

Chaizvoizvo, kana usiri kufungisisa, iwe unofanirwa kuve. Uye MNDFL, studio nyowani yekufungisisa yeboka muNew York City, iri kuyedza kuita kuti kufungisisa kuve nyore kune vanhu vakaita seni nekupa rairo yakapusa uye matekiniki mukirasi, yakafanana neboka rekurovedzera muviri. Kugadzirira kirasi paMNDFL zvine musoro-isu tiri-tese-mune-iyi-pamwe nzira yakarira senge yakanaka sarudzo yangu yekutanga kuenda pane inoitika tsika.

Kupinda mukati me studio kunonzwa sekupinda mukufungisisa mhenyu pachayo, ine kwayakarerekera grey uye chena toni, matanda chaiwo, uye girinhi yakavhara madziro. Sezvandakanga ndaudzwa, ndakakanda shangu dzangu pamusuo ndokupinda munzvimbo yakadzikama. Nzvimbo yacho yakandiyeuchidza yeyoga studio yepamusoro, asi isinganyanyi kudikitira uye isingadhure (kirasi yemaminetsi makumi matatu ingori madhora gumi nemashanu). Ndakatora chigaro changu pamushonga wakanaka pasi ndokumirira kuti mudzidzisi atange.

Murairidzi wangu anga asiri iwo anotsemuka-granola yogi mhando yandaitarisira. Pane kudaro, akanga akapfeka semupurofesa: tirauzi, bhatani shati pasi, tayi, juzi uye magirazi matema-magirazi. (Ini, kune rimwe divi, ndaive mumabhurugwa eyoga, asi hei, yaive 9 mangwanani neMugovera, OK? Mushure mezvose, ini ndaivepo kuti ndidzidze chimwe chinhu.

Kune vatsva mukirasi, akatsanangura kuti kune mbiru nhatu dzekufungisisa: muviri, kufema, uye pfungwa. Kutanga, takatarisa pane muviri, tichiwana mamiriro akakodzera ekufungisisa (makumbo akayambuka, maoko achizorora zvinyoro pamabvi, maziso akavhurika, asi vhura zvinyoro nyoro, kunge iwe uchangomuka kubva kuhope refu). Akatinyevera kuti chinzvimbo chemakumbo chakayambuka chinogona kusanzwisisika mushure mechinguva sezvo tisina kujaira kugara takadaro uye tikakurudzira kuisa mabvi kumusoro tikatanga kurasikirwa nekunzwa mune rimwe gumbo. Zvadaro, akatifambisa kuburikidza nekuvandudza kufema kunyoro, kwakadzikama. Yakanga iri padyo nekufema kwangu kwakajairika, pamwe kudzika zvishoma, asi mutsauko waive wekutarisa-ndakaedza kufunga nezvese inhale uye exhale sezvazvaiitika. Zvese zvakanaka kusvika parizvino.

Zvino yakanga yava nguva yechikamu chaicho chekufungisisa. Mudzidzisi wedu akatsanangura kuti anga achideredza kutaura kwake uye tichava nemaminetsi makumi matatu ekufungisisa mushure mekunge tanzwa "ding" reyake yekuimba yeTibetan yekuimba. Akatikurudzirawo kuti tisa fungirwe ninjas-haufanire kutema pfungwa dzese dzauinadzo panguva yekufungisisa. Pane kudaro, anokurudzira kungovarega vachipfuura uye kudzokera kunoisa pfungwa pakufema. Ndiani aiziva kuti kufunga panguva yekufungisisa kwaive kwakanaka?! (Edza aya gumi Mantras Mindfulness Nyanzvi Rarama Nayo.)

Ndakaedza kusafunga, asi kufungisisa kunoita kuti unyanye kufunga. Ndakazviona ndakanyatso kunyatsoziva tumvere tudiki tudiki turi pamusoro pebvudzi rangu (anonyatso tekenya!), maoko angu (nei akanyarara kudaro? Havafanire kunge vachinyora kana kutumira mameseji kana kupuruzira muInsta?), Muromo wemuvakidzani wangu kufema, kuti bvudzi rakangoerekana riri pasi (ndeyangu here?).

Ndakanga ndichiita zvakanaka kwazvo kusvikira kamwe kamwe pandakaona kuti ndakanga ndisinganzwe mugumbo rangu rerudyi. Muchokwadi, garo rangu nemuzasi kumashure zvaive zvakaita chando futi. Ipapo ndakave nekakutya kutya. Ndakanga ndichizopfuura here? Ndosimuka ndoenda here? Izvo zvaizokanganisa munhu wese zen? Makumbo angu angatondibvumira kusimuka here? Ndakarangarira hunyengeri hwakapihwa nemurairidzi wedu nezvekusimudza ibvi kuwedzera kuyerera kweropa pagumbo kana rikatanga kukotsira, saka ndakafamba ndokutarisa pakufema kwakadzikama kusvikira ndadzikama uye nekunzwa kudzoka mumuviri wangu.

Kirasi yese yakafamba zvakanaka kusvika tsindi yaimhanya padenga yandiburitsa mundangariro dzangu-ndakaita sekunge ndiri kumutswa kubva mukurara kwandanga ndisati ndanyatso gadzirira kubuda. Mudzidzisi wedu akataura nezvekuvhiringidza, achitizivisa kuti tinogona kumbundira ruzha uye kuiita chikamu chekufungisisa kwedu, izvo zvakabatsira kirasi kuzorora zvakare. Uye ndisati ndazviziva, "ding" yendiro yekuimba yeTibetan yakatiburitsa mukufungisisa kwemaminetsi mashoma ehurukuro. Ndakaudza kirasi nezvekusagadzikana kwangu uye kuti ndakapotsa ndafunga kuti ndaizofanira kusiya kirasi. Hapana akaita sekushamisika; pfungwa nemuviri zvemunhu wese zvinobata zvakasiyana pakufungisisa. Uye mushure mezen yese iyoyo, muviri wangu wakagadzirira kusimuka ndiende. Chokwadi, ndakanzwa kudzikama kubva mukirasi, asi zvaive zvenguva pfupi-uye ndanga ndichifarira kuenda kukirasi yekutamba mushure mezvo ndoizunza (izvo zvandakaita)!

Iye murayiridzi akapedza kirasi aine chiyeuchidzo chekuti haisi nguva yega yega ichave ichizorora uye newewo ungasawana zvakanakira kufungisisa ipapo ipapo, uye ndizvo. Neimwe nzira, zvakangofanana nekuenda kujimu. Iwe haungarasikirwe nemapaundi gumi mushure mekirasi yako yekutanga yekutenderera, asi iwe kuda unzwe wakasiyana mushure mekamwe chete nguva. (Hauna kugutsikana? Vhidhiyo yeKufungisisa 'F*ck That' Inokubatsira Kufema BS.)

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