Kurwisa Kwandakaita naAmai vane Bipolar Disorder Vakaramba Kurapwa Kwemakore makumi mana

Zvemukati

• Kazhinji yenguva, haugone kutaura. Kazhinji yenguva, anonyemwerera zvine hunyoro uye anofamba nezve iro zuva nekunyepedzera stoicism.
• Kuwana kujeka
• Kuwana rugare
• Kutarisa kumberi, pamwechete

Kazhinji yenguva, haugone kutaura. Kazhinji yenguva, anonyemwerera zvine hunyoro uye anofamba nezve iro zuva nekunyepedzera stoicism.

Ziso chete, rakadzidziswa kuburikidza nemakore akaparadzwa mabiko ezuva rekuzvarwa, eccentric kushambadzira sprees, uye nyowani mabhizimusi matsva anogona kuzviona, zvakagadzirira kubuda pasina yambiro.

Dzimwe nguva zvinouya apo ini ndikakanganwa kugara ndakadzikama uye kunzwisisa. Reactionary kushungurudzika kunowedzera unopinza kune rangu izwi. Chiso chake chinoshanduka. Muromo wake, senge wangu, uyo unowanzo tenderera pasi pamakona, unoratidzika kunge unodonha zvakanyanya. Tsitsi dzake dzakasviba, dzakatetepa kubva pamakore ekuwedzeredza-kusimuka, simuka kuti ugadzire mitsara yakareba yakatetepa pahuma yake. Misodzi inotanga kudonha apo iye achinyora zvikonzero zvese zvaakatadza saamai.

"Iwe unongofara chete dai ndanga ndisiri pano," iye anodanidzira apo achiunganidza zvinhu zvinoita sezvakakosha pakubuda kunze: bhuku rerwiyo rwepiano, murwi wemabhiri nemarisiti, balm yemiromo.

Uropi hwangu hwemakore manomwe ekuberekwa hune pfungwa yehupenyu husina Amai. Ko dai akangoenda asina kumbouya kumba, Ndofunga. Ndinotofungidzira hupenyu kana akafa. Asi ipapo kunzwa kunozivikanwa kunopinda mukati kubva mukuziva kwangu senge inotonhora, yakanyorova fog: mhosva.

Ndiri kuchema, kunyangwe ini ndisingakwanise kutaura kana chiri chechokwadi nekuti misodzi yekunyepedzera yakashanda kakawanda kuti ione mutsauko. "Muri amai vakanaka," ndinodaro ndakanyarara. "Ndinokuda." Haanditendi. Iye achiri kurongedza: anounganidzwa girazi figurine, yakasviba peya yakashata-akacheka ruoko-akacheka zvikabudura zvakachengetedzwa kugadheni. Ndinofanira kuedza zvakanyanya.

Chiitiko ichi chinogumisa imwe yenzira mbiri: baba vangu vanosiya basa kuti "vabate mamiriro", kana runako rwangu runoshanda zvakakwana kuti vadzikame. Panguva ino, baba vangu vanodzivirirwa nhaurirano isina kunetsa nemukuru wavo. Makumi matatu maminetsi gare gare, takagara pasofa. Ini ndinodongorera ndisingataure sezvo iye asinganzwisisike achitsanangura chikonzero chakanyatsoitika chekuti akacheka shamwari yevhiki yapfuura kubva paupenyu hwake.

"Unongofara chete dai ndisipo," anodaro. Iwo mazwi anotenderera nemusoro wangu, asi ini ndinonyemwerera, ndinogutsurira, uye ndinotarisana nemeso.

Kuwana kujeka

Amai vangu havana kumbobvira vaonekwa zviri pamutemo vane bipolar kusagadzikana. Akaenda kune vanoverengeka varapi, asi havana kumbogara kwenguva refu. Vamwe vanhu vanotaura zvisiri izvo vanhu vane bipolar kusagadzikana se "vanopenga," uye amai vangu zvirokwazvo hazvisizvo. Vanhu vane bipolar disorder vanoda zvinodhaka, uye iye zvechokwadi haadi izvo, anodaro. Iye anongonetsekana, anoshanda zvakanyanya, uye ari kunetsekana kuchengetedza hukama nemapurojekiti matsva ari mupenyu. Pamazuva aanobuda pamubhedha nguva dzisati dzasvika 2 dzemasikati, Amai vaneta vanotsanangura kuti dai Baba vaive kumba zvakanyanya, dai vaine basa idzva, kana kugadziridzwa kwemba kwaizomboitwa, vangadai vasina kuita seizvi. Ini ndoda kumutenda.

Yakanga isiri nguva dzose kusuruvara uye misodzi. Takaita zviyeuchidzo zvakawanda zvakanaka kwazvo. Panguva iyoyo, ini handina kunzwisisa kuti nguva dzake dzekuzvibata, kugadzirwa, uye kuseka kweguvhu-chaiko chaive chikamu chehurwere, futi. Ini handina kunzwisisa kuti kuzadza ngoro yekutenga nembatya nyowani uye zvihwitsi "nekuda kwekuti" yaive mureza mutsvuku. Pane bvudzi romusango, isu takambopedza zuva rechikoro tichiputsa madziro eimba yekudyira nekuti imba yacho yaida mwenje chaiwo. Izvo zvandinoyeuka seakanakisa nguva zvaive chaizvo zvakanyanya chikonzero chekufunganya senguva dzisingateereri. Bipolar kusagadzikana ine yakawanda shades ye grey.

Melvin McInnis, MD, mupurisa mukuru uye mukuru wesainzi weHeinz C. Prechter Bipolar Research Fund, anoti ndosaka apedza makore makumi maviri nemashanu apfuura achidzidza chirwere ichi.

"Hupamhi nekudzika kwemanzwiro evanhu anoratidzwa muchirwere ichi kwakadzika," anodaro.

Asati asvika paUniversity yeMichigan muna 2004, McInnis akapedza makore achiedza kutsvaga jeni rekutora mutoro. Kukundikana ikoko kwakamutungamira kuti atange kudzidza kwenguva refu nezve bipolar disorder kuti awedzere mufananidzo wakajeka uye wakazara wechirwere ichi.

Zvemhuri yangu, pakanga pasina kumbove nemufananidzo wakajeka. Manic amai vangu vanotaura vaisaratidzika senge manic zvakakwana kuti vabvumidze kushanya kwekukurumidza kune chiremba chepfungwa. Nguva yake yekushushikana, iyo yaaigara achifunga nezvehupenyu hwese kushushikana, haina kumboita senge yakaderera zvakakwana.

Ndicho chinhu chine bipolar kusagadzikana: Icho chakaomarara kupfuura cheki yekutarisa yezviratidzo iwe yaunowana online kune 100 muzana chaiyo kuongororwa. Zvinoda kushanyirwa kwakawanda kwenguva yakareba kuratidza maitiro ehunhu. Hatina kumbozviita kusvika ipapo. Iye haana kutaridzika kana kuita sevanyengeri vatambi vaunoona mumamuvhi. Saka haafanire kunge ave nacho, handiti?

Kunyangwe paine mibvunzo isina kupindurwa, tsvagiridzo inoziva zvishoma zvinhu nezve bipolar kusagadzikana.

• Iyo inobata nezve 2.6 muzana yehuwandu hweUS.
• Inoda kuongororwa kwechipatara, uko kunoda kushanyirwa kwakawanda.
• Chirwere chacho.
• Inowanzo kukura panguva yekuyaruka kana kutanga munhu mukuru.
• Iko hakuna kurapwa, asi kune akawanda marapirwo sarudzo aripo.
• yevarwere vane bipolar disorder vanotanga kuongororwa zvisizvo.

Makore akati wandei uye mumwe murapi gare gare, ndakadzidza mukana wekuti amai vangu vane bipolar disorder. Ehezve, murapi wangu aisakwanisa kutaura pachena kuti ndanga ndisati ndambosangana naye, asi anoti kugona kwacho "kunonyanya kuitika." Yaive panguva imwe chete zororo uye mumwe mutoro. Ini ndaive nemhinduro, asi ivo vainzwa kunonoka kuita basa. Hupenyu hwedu hungadai hwakasiyana zvakadii kuongororwa uku - kunyangwe zvisiri zvepamutemo - kukasira kuuya?

Kuwana rugare

Ndakanga ndatsamwira amai vangu kwemakore mazhinji. Ndaitofunga kuti ndaimuvenga nekuita kuti ndikurumidze kukura. Ini ndakanga ndisina kugadzirira pamoyo kumunyaradza paakarasikirwa nehumwe hushamwari, kumuvimbisa kuti akanaka uye akakodzera kudiwa, kana kuzvidzidzisa kugadzirisa dambudziko requadratic.

Ndiri gotwe pavakoma vashanu. Zvizhinji zvehupenyu hwangu, yaingova vakoma vatatu neni uye ini. Takatsungirira nenzira dzakasiyana. Ndakatora huwandu hwakawanda hwemhosva. Mumwe murapi akandiudza kuti imhaka yekuti ini ndaingova mumwe mukadzi mumba - vakadzi vanoda kunamatira pamwe nezvose izvozvo. Ndakafambisa pakati pekunzwa kudiwa kwekuve mwana wegoridhe asina kana chakaipa pakuve iye musikana aingoda kuve mwana uye asinganetseke nezve mutoro. Pana 18, ndakaenda kunogara nemurume wangu-mukomana uye ndikapika kuti handizombocheuka.

Amai vangu vava kugara kune imwe nyika nemurume wavo mutsva. Kubva ipapo takabatana zvakare. Nhaurirano dzedu dzinogumira kune zvine mutsigo Facebook zvirevo kana zvine mutsindo kuchinjana nezvemazororo.

McInnis anoti vanhu vakaita saamai vangu, vanoshora kubvuma chero nyaya dzinopfuura kusanduka kwemamiriro, kazhinji nekuda kwechinyadzo chakakomberedza chirwere ichi. “Pfungwa huru isina kururama ine bipolar disorder ndeyekuti vanhu vane chirwere ichi havashande munzanga. Izvo zvinokurumidza kuchinja kubva pakuora mwoyo uye manic. Kazhinji chirwere ichi chinohwanda pasi pechiso, ”anodaro.

Semwana wemubereki ane bipolar disorder, iwe unonzwa akasiyana manzwiro: chigumbu, kuvhiringidzika, kutsamwa, mhosva. Iwo manzwiro haapere nyore, kunyangwe nekufamba kwenguva. Asi ndichitarisa kumashure, ndinoona mazhinji eaya manzwiro anobva mukusagona kumubatsira. Kuve aripo paainzwa kusurukirwa, kuvhiringidzika, kutya, uye kunze kwekudzora. Kurema hakuna kana mumwe wedu aive akashongedzerwa kutakura.

Kutarisa kumberi, pamwechete

Kunyangwe isu tisina kumbobvumidzwa kuongororwa zviri pamutemo, kuziva zvandinoziva izvozvi kunonditendera kuti nditarise kumashure nemaonero akasiyana. Zvinondibvumidza kuti ndinyanye kutsungirira paanodana panguva yekushushikana kwenyika. Izvo zvinondipa simba rekumuyeuchidza zvinyoro nyoro kuti aite kumwe kurapwa kurapwa uye kurega kubva ku relandscaping kumashure kwake. Tariro yangu ndeyekuti anowana kurapwa kuchamubvumidza kuti asarwe zvakanyanya mazuva ese. Izvi zvinozomusunungura pamatambudziko nekukwira.

Rwendo rwangu rwekupora rwakatora makore mazhinji. Handikwanise kutarisira kuti zvake zvichaitika husiku. Asi panguva ino, haazove ari ega.

Cecilia Meis ari freelance munyori uye mupepeti nyanzvi mukusimudzira kwega, hutano, hutano, uye bhizimusi. Akagamuchira degree rake reBachelor mumagazini venhau kubva kuYunivhesiti yeMissouri. Kunze kwekunyora, anofarira volleyball yejecha uye kuyedza maresitorendi matsva. Unogona kumutumira pa @CeciliaMeis.