Iko Kurasikirwa Kwekutanga Kubata Pamuviri Chaizvo Kunonzwa Kwakaita

Ndakakumbira amai vangu kuti vauye nemachira ekare. Akauya kuzobatsira, kuchengeta mwana wangu ane mwedzi gumi nemasere, uye kugadzira chikafu. Kunyanya akauya kuzomirira.

Ndakanwa piritsi husiku hwapfuura, sekurairwa kwachiremba weOB-GYN. Uye ini ndakaisa imwe mukati mangu nyini. Ndokubva ndarara. Ndokumirira.

Piritsi raive RU486 - {textend} mangwanani-mushure mepiritsi. Yakatemwa mushure mekunge ndaita ma sonograms mazhinji anoratidza "magene echinhu" akatenderera muchibereko changu.

Ndanga ndichiedza kubata nhumbu. Ndakanga ndine pamuviri. Zvakaitika nekukurumidza. IUD yakabuda muna Chikumi 30. Pakazosvika Nyamavhuvhu, ndakanga ndava nepamuviri. Isu takafara. Ndakaverenga zuva rakakodzera - {textend} kwakatenderedza Zuva raAmai.

Izvo zvakatevera kuitika zvakatanga, sezvandinotarisa kumashure kwazviri izvozvi, nehunhu. Chinhu chisina kumira zvakanaka, uye handina kukwanisa kutaura kuti nei.

Asi nemavhiki mashanu, ndakaziva. Handizivi kuti sei. Zvinhu zvakangonzwa kure. Hapana wandakaudza ndikaenda kukiriniki uko kwavanoitira mahara sonograms. Pakiriniki iyi, zvakanyanya zvavaiita kwaive kuraira uye kubvisa nhumbu.

Muimba yekumirira iyi, mweya wairema, zviso zvakatsunga. Wechidiki wechidiki. Mukadzi ari pakati pe 30s. Varume, vabereki, shamwari.

Ndakanga ndine bhuku.

Nguva yangu yakasvika. Chidzitiro chaive chegrey. Ikoko kwaitaridza kuve kune blob. Vanhu vaviri vane makore ekuma20 vakapinda. Hapana aitaridza kuve nechokwadi nezvavaitarisa.

Kubva pamota yangu pakanga pakapakirwa mota, ndakafonera nyamukuta vangu, avo vakandiudza kuongororwa ropa, izvo zvandakaita nekukasira.

Hupenyu hwakaenderera mberi. Ndakaudza amai vangu kuti ndaive nepamuviri. Ndakaudza shamwari dzangu mbiri dzepedyo. Ndakaenda kubasa.

PaChishanu masikati, ini nemwanakomana wangu taifamba tisina shangu muhuswa foni yangu payakarira. Nzvimbo yekuzvarwa yakadaidzwa ichiti mazinga angu eFSH ari kudonha uye kwete kwavanofanirwa kunge vari panenge vhiki nhanhatu vakazvitakura. "Ndine hurombo," nyamukuta vakadaro.

"Neniwo," ndakadaro. "Ndatenda."

Mazuva apfuura, vanachiremba vakazvisimbisa. "Genetic material" yaive pachiratidziri. Ini ndaiziva zvatisina kuona. Hapana kuburitsa dot yekurova kwemoyo. Hapana bhinzi diki rerima.

Chii chatinoita?

Zvakadaro, handina kunzwa kurasikirwa. Isu tinogadzirisa sei izvi "genetic zvinhu" muchibereko changu?

"Ngatiedzei mapiritsi." Saka takaita. Ndakaipfuudza nguva kuti nditore piritsi neChitatu manheru. China raive zuva rangu rekuzorora.

Mangwanani iwayo, ndakanzwa kurwadza, ndainzwa kunge ndaifanira kusvipa. Ndakaburuka muchimbuzi ndokufambisa ndichienda kusink.

Nhanho imwe uye kusunungurwa.

Ropa gobvu. Gooey. Uye ini ndanga ndave kutsvaga matauro ekare. Ndakavawana munguva yekubata glob repiri - {textend} kunge raive nerukoko rwune ropa. Paive neropa pauriri hwekongiri uye kudonha pamubhedha wegegege.

Isu takamirira mangwanani ese uye zvimwe zvakafanana sezvo muviri wangu wakadurura "magene echinhu." Nekusunungurwa kwese, ndainzwa kunge taive padhuze neizvi zvapera.

Izvo zvaive sekunge uine ese iwo mahedheni egore mune one mangwanani.

Pakusarudzwa kweOB-GYN zuva raitevera, takatarisa kune imwe kutenderera kwema sonograms. Mamwe ma "genetic material" anga achakabatirira mukati mangu.

Ini ndaive mumwe we3 muzana yevakadzi iyo RU486 isingashande.

"Toitei?" Ndakabvunza.

Mhinduro yaive D naC.Ndakaziva kuti aya ndiwo marondedzero akaita vamwe vanhu kubvisa nhumbu. Asi isu takanga tisati tatoita izvozvo?

Maitiro acho anosanganisira kutambanuka kwechibereko chechibereko kuti chikure uye kubvumidza zviridzwa muchibereko, uye mushonga - {textend} kukwesha madziro echibereko.

Mumwe China, imwe nzira. Uyu aive ari kunze kwechipatara. Amai vangu neni takanonoka. Murume wangu akamisa mota. Vanamukoti vaive vakanyanya kunaka. Zvakandinetsa kuti vaifunga here kuti ndiri kubvisa nhumbu, kana kuita nhumbu?

Anesthesiologist aive neUSC lanyard paakauya kuzotaura neni. Ndinoyeuka ndichiiswa mavhiri mukamuri uye kwaitonhora. Pandakamuka, ndakatora machipisi echando uye ndaida masokisi uye ziya rangu rebhuruu.

Murume wangu akatityaira kuenda kumba apo ini ndaiteerera kune voicemails ekushanda uye ndichiedza kusaita sedzisina kusimba.

Yakanga yapera.

"Ini handisisina nhumbu," ndakaudza shamwari dzangu mbiri dzepedyo, chenjera kuti varege kutaura izwi rinoti nhumbu.

Hazvishamise kuti kukwevera kunze kwekuparara kwakasiya nguva shoma yekuchema. Ini ndaive ndakatsunga kufamba nayo: nguva dzekugadzwa, maitiro, uye sonograms. Handina kutsvaga kunyarara kana kuonekana.

Ini ndichiri ndisina chokwadi kuti izvi zvinokwana sei muhupenyu hwangu. Ini handisati ndanyatsozvibata nazvo uye ndinochengeta imwe hasha kushamwari iyo yakati, "Takarasikirwa nemusikana wedu. Aiva musikana wako. ”

Kana iwe ukabatwa munzira ipi neipi nekuparara, ziva izvi: Chekutanga, zvakaitika, uye zvaive nebasa.

Shamwari dzako nemhuri vangave vasingazvizive. Kana ivo vangasabvunza. Kana ivo vangasafunge kuti zvine basa. Zvakadaro.

Kudza izvozvo. Mira. Kuchema. Fungisisa. Nyora pasi. Goverana. Taura. Ipa zuva uye zita nenzvimbo. Kudzidza kuti iwe une pamuviri kunounza mafungu emanzwiro uye zvinotarisirwa.

Kudzidza kuti hausi kunounza yakatokura wave. Usatsauka. Usamhanye kuchinhu chinotevera.

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