Maitiro aFatphobia Akandidzivirira Sei kubva Mukuwana Rubatsiro rweKudya Kwangu Dambudziko

Zvemukati

• Kubvira ndichiri mudiki, ndakadzidza kukura kwangu kwaireva kusawana kurapwa
• Nekusadya ndaizvikuvadza - {textend} asi nzanga yaindiudza zvakasiyana
• Kunyangwe pandakanga ndave padhuze nekuwana kurapwa kwakanaka, ini ndaive ndichisangana nefatphobia kubva kune vanopa hutano
• Kuwana kurapwa kwakanaka kwaireva kudzidza kunzwa ndakachengeteka zvakakwana kuti ndisimbise muviri wangu

Kusarura mukati mehutano hwehutano kwaireva kuti ndakanetseka kuti ndiwane rubatsiro.

Maitiro atinoona maumbirwo epasi rose atinosarudza kuva - {textend} uye kugovana zviitiko zvinomanikidza zvinogona kuumba nzira yatinoitirana nayo, kuti ive nani. Aya maonero akasimba.

Kunyangwe hosha yangu yekudya yakatanga pandakanga ndiine makore gumi, zvakatora makore mana marefu munhu asati atenda kuti ndine imwechete - {textend} mhedzisiro yekusave huremu hwemuviri izvo zvinowanzo kuve zvine chekuita nedambudziko rekudya.

Ndisati ndaongororwa, ndakatumirwa kuchirongwa chevadiki veVaremu Vehuremu. Sezvazvinoitika, ichi chichava chiyeuchidzo chehondo yangu yemakore makumi maviri nebulimia, uye pakupedzisira anorexia nervosa.

Ini ndakatevera kudya kweanenge mavhiki maviri uye ndaive pamusoro pemwedzi nezvekudzora huremu. Asi mavhiki maviri gare gare zvaive senge switch iyi yakavhurwa. Pakarepo, handina kuzokwanisa kurega kuzvinyudza.

Uye ndakavhunduka.

Ini ndaisakwanisa kunzwisisa kuti sei ndaive ndisinganyatso kutonga kana ini ndaishuvira kurasikirwa nehuremu kupfuura chero chinhu chiri munyika.

Ndakanga ndadzidza achiri mudiki kuti kuve mutete kwaifanira kudiwa mumhuri yangu, uye pakupedzisira, ndakatanga kuchenesa zuva nezuva. Ndinoyeuka zvakajeka ndichiudza chipangamazano wechikoro pazera remakore gumi nemaviri nezve zvandanga ndichiita. Ndakanzwa pfungwa yakasimba yekunyara kugovana izvi naye.

Paakamhan'ara kuvabereki vangu, havana kutenda kuti ichokwadi nekuda kwekukura kwemuviri wangu.

kuti yekutanga chirwere chekudya chikaonekwa nekurapwa, zvirinani mhedzisiro yekurapa. Asi nekuda kwehukuru hwemuviri wangu, pakanga pasati pakaita dambudziko rangu rekudya rakabuda kunze kwekudzora pazera re14, kuti kunyangwe mhuri yangu yaisakwanisa kuramba kuti ndaive nedambudziko.

Asi kunyangwe mushure mekunge ndaonekwa, huremu hwangu hwaireva kuwana kurapwa kwakakodzera yaive ichiri hondo yakakwirisa.

Kubvira ndichiri mudiki, ndakadzidza kukura kwangu kwaireva kusawana kurapwa

Kubva zuva rekutanga ndakawana zvipingaidzo pakona yega yega kana zvasvika pakuwana rubatsiro rwandaida - {textend} dzinenge nguva dzose nekuda kwekurema kwangu. Munguva yekurwara kwangu kwekutanga, ndinorangarira ndisingadye uye chiremba wangu muwadhi akandikorokotedza nekuonda.

“Wakarasikirwa nehuremu hwakawanda svondo rino! Tarisa uone zvinoitika kana ukarega kudhakwa uye kupukuta! ” akadaro.

Ndakadzidza nekukasira kuti nekuti ndaive ndisina huremu, kudya kwaisarudzika - {textend} kunyangwe ndaive nedambudziko rekudya. Ini ndinogona kurumbidzwa nekuda kwehunhu chaihwo hunhu hwaive hwekunetseka kukuru kune mumwe munhu mumuviri mudiki.

Kuita kuti zvinhu zviwedzere kuipa, inishuwarenzi yangu yakaratidza kuti huremu hwangu hwaita kusagadzikana kwangu kwekudya kusakosha. Uye saka ndakaendeswa kumba mushure memazuva matanhatu chete ekurapwa.

Uye ichi chaingova kutanga.

Ini ndaizoenderera ndichipedza yakawanda yevechidiki vangu uye kutanga 20s mukati uye kunze kwekurapwa kweangu bulimia. Uye apo ini ndaive neinishuwarenzi huru, amai vangu vaipedza makore iwayo vachinetsana nekambani yangu yeinishuwarenzi, vachiedza kurwira kuti ndiwane kureba kwekurapwa kwandaida.

Kuita kuti zvinhu zviwedzere kuipa, meseji inoenderera yandakapihwa neavo vari mune zvekurapa yaive yekuti zvese zvandaida kuzvidzora uye kutonga zvakanyanya kuti uwane muviri mudiki wandaida kwazvo. Ini ndaigara ndichinzwa sekukundikana uye ndaitenda kuti ndaive ndisina simba uye ndaisemesa.

Kuwanda kwekuzvivenga uye kunyara kwandainzwa ndiri mudiki hakutsanangurike.

Nekusadya ndaizvikuvadza - {textend} asi nzanga yaindiudza zvakasiyana

Pakupedzisira, kusagadzikana kwangu kwekudya kwakashanduka kuita anorexia (zvakajairika kuti kusagadzikana kwekudya kuchinje mumakore ese).

Zvakasvika pakuipa zvekuti nhengo yemhuri yakambondikumbira kudya. Ndinoyeuka ndichinzwa kuzorodzwa kwakadzama nekuti, kekutanga muhupenyu hwangu, ndakapihwa mvumo yandaida kuita mune chimwe chinhu chakakosha kuti muviri wangu urarame.

Yakanga isiri iyo kusvika 2018, zvisinei, kuti ini ndakaonekwa zviri pamutemo ndine anorexia nechikwata changu chekurapa. Asi, kunyangwe mhuri yangu, shamwari, uye kunyange vanopa kurapwa vaine hanya nezvekurambidzwa kwangu kwakanyanya, chokwadi chekuti huremu hwangu hwaive husina kudzikira zvakakwana zvaireva kuti sarudzo dzekugamuchira rubatsiro dzaive shoma.

Pandakanga ndichiona murapi wangu uye chiremba wezvekudya vhiki nevhiki, ndaive ndisina kudya zvinovaka muviri zvekuti kurapwa kwangu kwekunze kwakange kusingakwanise kundibatsira kubata maitiro angu ekudya asina kunaka.

Asi mushure mekunyengetedza kwakawanda kubva kuna chiremba wangu wezvekudya, ndakabvuma kuenda kuchirongwa chemuno chevarwere. Sezvo zvaive zvave zviri kazhinji kazhinji mukati merwendo rwangu rwekuchengetedza, chirongwa ichi chaisazondigamuchira nekuti huremu hwangu hwaive husina kudzikira zvakakwana. Ndinoyeuka ndichidimbura runhare ndichiudza chiremba wangu wezvekudya kuti zviri pachena kuti kusagadzikana kwangu pakudya hakugone kuve kwakakomba.

Panguva ino ndanga ndichipfuura nguva dzose, asi chirongwa chevanorwara vachindirambidza chakadyiswa mukuramba kwangu kwakasimba kwechirwere changu chekudya.

Kunyangwe pandakanga ndave padhuze nekuwana kurapwa kwakanaka, ini ndaive ndichisangana nefatphobia kubva kune vanopa hutano

Pakutanga gore rino ndakatanga kuona chiremba mutsva wezvekudya uye ndakatomboita rombo rakakwana rekugamuchira mubhadharo wekugara uye kukwana muchipatara. Izvi zvaireva kuti ndaive nemukana wekurapwa izvo zvingangodaro zvakarambwa nekambani yangu yeinishuwarenzi nekuda kwekurema kwangu.

Asi kunyangwe pandainamira padhuze nekugamuchira rubatsiro rwandainyatsoda, ini ndakaramba ndichisangana nevanoona nezvehutano avo vakasundira rondedzero ye fatphobic.

Ini ndakamboita mukoti achindiudza kakawanda kuti handifanire kunge ndichidya chikafu chese chandanga ndiri panguva yekupora kwangu. Akandiudza kuti kune dzimwe nzira dzekugadzirisa "kupindwa muropa nechikafu" uye ndinogona kurega kubva kumamwe mapoka ezvikafu kana ndangosiya kurapwa.

Njodzi dzekurambidzwa kwekudya Kukamura mapoka ezvekudya zvechero dambudziko rekudya kunonetsa kunetsa senge anorexia nervosa, bulimia, uye binge kudya kusagadzikana zvinowanzo kuve zvakadzika midzi mukudzivirira, kana kunzwa mhosva kana kutya pakatenderedza kudya. Kurega kubva mumapoka ezvekudya kunokusiya uchinzwa sekunge hauna simba pamusoro peboka rezvikafu kana kuti iwe unoda kuzvidzivirira zvachose.

Kundiudza kuti ndirege kudya kana ndaitya kudya zvainetsa, kunyangwe kwandiri. Asi kudya kwangu kwakakanganisika huropi kwakashandisa izvo semabumburu kufunga kuti muviri wangu waisatomboda chikafu.

Kuwana kurapwa kwakanaka kwaireva kudzidza kunzwa ndakachengeteka zvakakwana kuti ndisimbise muviri wangu

Nekutenda, mukati memwedzi mishoma yapfuura, vadyiti vangu varipo vakaona kurambidzwa kwangu pakudya sechinhu chakakomba.

Yaitamba chikamu chakakura mukwaniso yangu yekuteerera kurapwa, sezvo ini ndaikwanisa kunzwa ndakachengeteka zvakakwana kudya nekupa muviri wangu muviri. Ndakanga ndadzidza kubva pazera diki kuti kudya uye kuda kudya zvainyadzisa uye zvakaipa. Asi iyi yaive nguva yangu yekutanga kupihwa mvumo izere yekudya zvandaida.

Ndichiri kupora, ndiri kushanda maminetsi ese ezuva rega rega kuita sarudzo dziri nani.

Uye apo ini ndichiramba ndichishanda pandiri, itariro yangu kuti marapirwo edu anotanga kunzwisisa kuti fatphobia haina nzvimbo muhutano, uye kuti kusagadzikana kwekudya hakusarure - {textend} izvi zvinosanganisira pakati pemhando dzemuviri.

Kana iwe ukazviwana uchinetseka nedambudziko rekudya, asi usanzwe sekunge vako varipo vezvehutano varikupa mishonga yakakunakira iwe, ziva kuti hausi wega. Funga kutsvaga rubatsiro kubva kune vanodya chirwere chevashandi vanoshanda kubva kuhurongwa hwe HAES. Kune zvakare kune akati wandei anobatsira ekudya kusagadzikana zviwanikwa pano, apa, uye apa.

Shira Rosenbluth, LCSW, muchengeti wezvehutano wemagariro muNew York City. Ane shungu dzekubatsira vanhu kuti vanzwe kugona kwavo mumuviri wavo chero pahukuru uye hunyanzvi pakurapwa kwekusagadzikana kudya, kusagadzikana kwekudya, uye kusagutsikana kwechimiro chemuviri uchishandisa nzira isingarerekere. Ndiye zvakare munyori weThe Shira Rose, inozivikanwa yemuviri yakanaka blog blog iyo yakaverengerwa muVerily Magazine, The Everygirl, Glam, uye laurenconrad.com. Unogona kumuwana pa Instagram.